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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

  • You know what sucks???
    Being lonely. Legit all of my friends are in a different country right now...together having a wonderful time. I got a message from my boy ( who is with them) about how they are all having so much fun and how they see so many things I would love. And it just sucks. I should be there but I was not allowed because i need to work according to the parental units. I don't think they realized how miserable i would be. I'm pretty unstable already and my friends are what keep me going. Without them the last like 4 days have been terrible all I've done is cry and work. I've come so close to cutting myself like three times but I know that if he found out and knew he wasn't there for me to call when I needed him he would be so guilty. I don't want them to be guilty I love them all and want them to be having a good time they will remember for the rest of their lives. I just want to be with the too, you know?
    But whatever....life sucks....then end.


    Intake:
    apple
    peanut butter
    grapes
    wheat thins
    cheese
    total: 554


    Outtake: Forever at work....


    I apologize for being so ridiculous. Hope you all are having an amazing day. <3

Monday, July 14, 2008

  • So my boy left for the next two weeks....and in response my emotional eating kicked in and I ate pretty much everything in sight. Its disgusting. I was doing pretty well too. But not anymore. My goal is to be at least to 135 by homecoming. Thats really only 15 pounds....if I haven't gone over 50 with this terribly binge. I haven't checked yet but I will update later.

    I always like to jumpstart my loosing with a fast so I am going to do a twenty four hour fast. Starting at midnight last night until midnight tonight.

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    Outtake: Lugging around boxes and folding at work

    Hope you all have a great day
    <    3

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

  • 144
    Still gross

    I'm going home today though which is so nice. Its terrible being stuck down here. All I do is work and then I sit around thinking about how fat I am. Its lovely. At home I have friends and a boy who is amazing. He gets home from his cruise tomorrow I'm so excited. I have missed him so much its not even funny. He leaves again for two weeks without contact on the 12th which makes me sad but he'll be having fun so thats good.

    Anyways I had some pinapple to get my metabolism going and I'm going to not eat until I have dinner later with my friends and I'll just get a salad.


    Intake:
    pinapple
    salad


    Hope you all have a good day <3

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

  • 146
    disgusting


    So I didn't get to go the full 48 hours. My mom took us to lunch. Its all I'm eating today and then I am going to go running after work. But gosh that sucks.
    But I made this program at my school that I have wanted to be on since I was in Seventh grade! I'm so pumped. It made my day. It even made the food problem not seem so bad.


    Damage:
    banana
    blt on wheat bread
    a few fries
    diet coke
    total: around 700 cals

    Excersise:
    TBA

    Hope you are all doing good today loves <3

    I resisted icecream today and only had like three bites of my moms. I was pretty proud of myself. Tomorrow I'm not going to eat until I have dinner with my friends I think unless I cave and have something small which hopefully I will not.

Monday, June 30, 2008

  • Going for 48 hours instead.

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    water: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8


    Things to do today:
    unpack
    clean up room
    shower
    work
    summer reading
    stretches

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