heyyy. guys, sorry if i havent like subscribed to you in my other xanga.. like this computer really sucks so it takes forever for yalls xangas to load and to like do all this other junk.. so ive basically only subscribed to people who have either subscibed to me already on my new one ((by the way its ive_slipped_away)) or left a comment or they are my friend in person and have a link in their info.. lol. so if you want to be subscibed to, leave a comment in my other xanga or subscribe to it and ill be sure to do it back. ((its easier that way because then i wont have to log out and log onto this one and log out and log onto the other one and subscribe to you and then redo it all again. its frustrating. if i were at my dads, itd be a lot faster and what not but im not and its annoying. so im sorry.))

oh! and also, theres like one or two who have already subscribed but my computer is being gay and wont load their xangas as of like tonight so i cant subscribe, so as soon it starts lettin me load, ill subscibe back! k?

anyway.

last week was good. i wish casey would be with me...

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Today.. was.. AWESOME.

hehehe... i just loved it.. all of it.. mmm.. it made me so happy.. i was grinning like an ass throughout it all.

I was trying to not like Casey.. But i failed.. Ahh... He makes me smile.

Now im on the phone with Hannah.

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So today i stayed home sick. i didnt feel very well at all.. throat was sore and felt light headed as well as it hurting.. so i basically slept and read all day.

casey is really upset... he wont tell my exactly why either.. i know its got a lot to do with his parents arguing a lot lately.. but i dont know what else... i wish he would open up to me.. well, he usually does.. but he didnt today.. i wish there was something i could do for him.. anything.. just to cheer him up. hes been upset all week, i think.. but i think at school ive been doing pretty well with taking his mind off of it.. if only for a little while.. he did say that poking/tickling me has been his "day maker" this week. lol, at least someones getting some good out of my laughing and like flinching in the hallways from it, as though im mentally challanged and have ticks. haha, dont ask. anyway... i tried to talk to him about casual stuff earlier.. but everything led back to him being pissed off at the world.. *sigh*.. maybe if id had gone today, id had been able to help make him feel better.. idk though.. no point on dwelling over it... i just want him to be okay.. or at least come to me if he needs anything.. i want to be there for him, like a good friend.. eh.. sorry, i must sound really lame.

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Hmm..

i dont feel good enough for him. Maybe im not. Maybe its weird because he already has a girlfriend, though others like him as well... Bleh, i fell too quickly.. especially for a boy who already has someone and probably has no interest for a girl like me. im buddy buddy. heh, i guess thats cool too though. heh, besides, maybe someday.. lol im getting ahead of myself.

But i hope.

The only one acting weird today was me... i was like scared... that if i did anything itd come off the wrong way to him.. so i was like cautious... i kinda wish he didnt know. didnt get me anywhere except this awkard feeling. he didnt respond to it or anything.. at least hes not really acting any different. so for that im glad.

camera phones are fun.

i cried today.

New xanga peoples. Check it out. Ill still be writing in this one though for entries i dont want some people seeing that dont have this link. mmk? peace.

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