| i have a myspace now if you want it it's http://www.myspace.com/desi_means_fexy update: me and David brook up today |
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| so i really don't know what to tell you guys. . . . . . . . . i have been hanging out with my new best friend Stephanie we have so much fun together!!! I can't waite untill i get to see David again b/c i miss him ALOT! i barley get to see him. Lastnight i was really deperssed and i wanted to cut myself but i didn't it was really hard!! Even though what i did today maybe wasn't much better . . . . . i had a somke and 4 shots of Wisky i have a nice buzz right now! |
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| Short update! I am seeing a consular now and it's been 6days since i have cut myself! I really want to stop this shit. Winterfest Dance was fun I looked like a girl for once. i got a new bestfrined. this guy that i had a crush on for the past 2 years asked me to be his girlfriend at the dance and DUH i said yes!! |
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| Don't know what to say . . . . . either I have been Happy or said or Pissed . . . . I've almost killed myself. . . . . . |
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| So Joey cheated on me he is just a GRRR I hope all the other girls out there hear about him and his smooth talking mouth. I don't want to see anyone else get hurt by that . . . yeah. . . i just can't belaive that I fell & believed everything he said . . . to me . . .he told me I was his one and only love he wrote poems & songs for me . . .he would argue with me that he loved me more than I loved him, I can't believe he just had me fooled I did so much for him . . . I gave him money & bought him things . . . I gave him something that girls shouldn't until their married . . .Everytime he told me it was going to be different and I believe him, but he just cheated on me again . . .he told me he straightend his life out when he clearly didn't . . . and I can't believe he cheated on me right after my mom died . . . what kind of person does that?? It's fucked up!! So this time there is no try again . . .It's over for good this time . . .I wont let another guy hurt me like that i got asked back out by Leon (again) . . . He said he couldn't believe he broke up with me in the first place, he said he had somethings he had to work through, but now its taken care of . . . and now since I'm dating someone my age thats not 19 maybe things will go alot better . . . I get to see him everyday and it's nice . . . Things are going really good for me right now... I had a slump and I really . . .REALLY wanted to cut BUT I didn't!! everything is going better It's so strange everything just feels drifferent . . . I'm getting a new car soon for like $600 it will be nice!!! ~youknow~ |
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