?listening to ?rise against- my life inside your heart
haven't written here in a while.. so i decided to since i'm thinking..and i think i should write this shit down..?
hm.. now i wish i wasn't in love with you sometimes either...i guess same reason. but you know that...that's not how i really feel about you . you know i do love you.... but that did hurt when you said that. you loved someone that lived wayyyyyy farther than me before, or maybe still..ionno?... and now you can't do the same to me?
yah.. ionno...do whatever you want. you're not even happy with me. today i thought that you weren't happy.. you probably been faking what you've said to me huh? but as for me.. i am happy...i really don't even know what i can give to you. but just to tell You.. you give me alot. i just can't explain it. there's just something about you...i just can't say.. ionno.. but whatever.
i know you're going to go out with the ppl that asked you out today... like you said " you make me want to cheat on you "... you were probably going to do that in the first place and not even tell me.. cause you relaly don't like me...don't be with me just cause you promised and you dn't want me to be sad... it's just going to hurt more when i find out you really don't like me.. but hey.. i'm just guessing..
i think you're right.. it's not even going to matter. cause you're not here.. and i'm not there.. so just tell me now ... cause i'm fallen for you... and i'm for realz..
you probably don't even care... but ...
like i said before... i don't want to loose you....
i really do love you...
so much. . no joke ] ]
this is what i'm thinking. and how i feel right now...YOU know who you are...
here's the lyrics to the song im listening to right now..
"My Life Inside Your Heart"
fighting back the impulse
turn my head and close my eyes
spending these nights awake and cold and paralyzed
wonder how we got this far and
never realized the common thread that binds our lives
and I know you hurt
but I can help you if you can...
take my hand
and we'll live inside the dreams we left behind
take my hand
as we move from this place to a better life
take my hand
(if you take my hand)
fighting back the feeling that you always could deny
anything but everything we know is just a lie
as I cremate this memory and watch the darkened ashes rise
and beneath the smoke
I'll stand and ask you if you can
take my hand
and I'll promise not to ever let it go
take my hand
'cause this hope is greater than you'll ever know
(take my hand)
and this is all I'll ever ask of you to show
fight back the urges
turn my head and close my eyes
and will I wake tomorrow still alive
I'm still dreaming
I'm still waiting
I'm still sure
(I'm still sure)
you're still living in a life
that isn't yours
(that isn't yours)
and this is part of me
I hope you never see
this is my life inside your heart
take my hand
and I'll promise not to ever let it go
take my hand
'cause this hope is greater than you'll ever know
(take my hand)
and this is all I'll ever ask of you to show
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