updating!! ahh.. well i havent been online in a while. kinda got bored of it y'know? anyways.. everything i alright, for the time being, nothing much new. still trying to work on that new song, yeah. i think its coming out okay. it'll sound funny when i sing it.. like my rendition of titanic. haha. i cant sing. omg. haha anyway..

people seemed to be bummed out more than usual. its sad. be happy everyone!! summer is coming up! yep thats right.. really hot weather since everyone is just killing the ozone layer.. haha.. time to swim, if you can swim, and if you cant.. use the tubies.. wow.. im weird. but seriously.. everyone, schools almost out. be happy you dont have to do evil school work for about 2 and a half monthss.. yeeaah. woo hoo. ahh.. okay im hungry now.. ill update this whenever. yeeah. laterr.

ah my birthday was a blast. we had this mini family party. which was partly at our house then this restaruant place. the food was good. i ate like their whole kitchen out. haha.. then my cousin, annie, started parading around telling every to sing happy birthday at a specific time. so they did, that was so cool. i felt special.. haha. then we started to raid a store. the worker there was freaking out like "AHH WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!!" *thinks* THERES SO MANY ASIANS AHHH WHAT TO DO!?! lol. we didnt knock anything over.. just walked in there with a big, huge group so they probably thought we were gonna steal all their stuff.. haha. but of course we didn't. I PAID FOR MY CHERRY SLUSHIE!!

anyways after i got home i was so tired i went to my room.. ahh sleep is good. then i remembered something and decided to pray for my friend. so hope that shes gonna be okay. she has so many people who care. i just dont think she realizes that we're here for her.  but thats okay, ill keep praying.

hmm.. oh yeah here are the translations to utada hikaru's "first love". im pretty sure there just about right. well enjoyy!!

your last kiss had the flavor of tabacco
a bitter and sad scent
where will you be tomorrow at this time?
who are you thinking of?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone else once again.
i'll remember to love, you taught me how.
you are always gonna be the one
now it's still a sad love song
until I'm able to sing a new song

time stood still, but it's trying to move once more
full of things i don't want to forget
i'll surely be crying tomorrow at this time,
i'll be thinking of you
you will always be inside my heart
there's always a place just for you
i hope that i have a place in your heart, too

now and forever you are still the one
now it's still a sad love song
until I'm able to sing a new song
you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone else once again
i'll remember to love, you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
now it's still a sad love song

now and forever..

i saw something in the newspaper today. it reads :
"..Police arrested a 35 year old man on suspicion of sexual assault after an 11 year old gave birth friday to a 4 pound baby girl..." okay now, WHO THE HELL DOES THAT?! doing that to an 11 year old. i swear everything is doomed. do you not have morals anymore?! i mean c'mon.. are you that pathetic? stupid people these days. they should just be locked up forever and not be able to see the daylight, EVER. people like them are the reason why we cannot, nor will we ever, have peace of any sort. even for a month!! is it that hard to keep your damn hands to your stupid self?! ah geez.

and whats with everyone wanting to die?! we're created to live and experience life not to fricken die all of a sudden. do you really want to just leave everything and everyone? why do you have to be so god damned selfish, thinking that no one ever cared or will care? sure, nothing makes sense sometimes in life, and yes some people drift away and turn into total idiots. but you shouldn't make that into a reason on which you can just die. AND if no one cared. why the hell am i typing this up for you?! ...why the hell would i bother.

"..always feel discomfort. always feel alone well who cares about it. cant find a, good reason to stay here." "think of family and think of your friends. think about all these thoughts will be gone when your dead, dead.."

who am i kidding, you're not gonna see this. but incase you do. its for you.

haha, i think this song fits ryan better. don't you agree? IM KIDDING! but yeah, i got bored after spazzing out for 30 mins. so yeah.. have fun with the song haha. please comment on his other entry.

- jenny