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Name: Matt
Birthday: 4/1/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: METAL!!! Metallica,Slayer,Ozzy, The Black Dahlia Murder, Decapitated,At The Gates, Carcass, Spawn of Possession, Through the Eyes of the Dead, Unearth, Children of Bodom, Lamb of God, Testament, Summers End,KsE, Nile, Misfits, Death, Dead to Fall, Blackheart Eulogy, Cattle Decapitation, Suffocation
Expertise: Playing in Duran Duran tribute bands
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  atdawntheyrest
Member Since:
11/2/2004
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| Jeez. I havent written in foreverrr... lol. Stuff is goin soo good with Melissa. Im so comfortable with her and it seems like weve been together for a long time. We always have a good time when were together and i seriously like never stop thinkin about her. I dont even know how to put words to how i feel about her. Its a great feeling though and i havent had it for a long long time. The only bad thing at all is she has a lot of stuff stressin her out and stuff so i get worried about her. Whenever Im not with her/ talkin to her i feel like i need to be worried about her havin another breakdown. I hate seein her upset. I also hate how sometimes, the only one who can help her is Justin. I guess i can understand that because theyve known eachother for so long and stuff. Stuff is so complicated with them. I dont think im really worried about her goin back to him or anything like that, but id like to b able to eventually idk.. take his place maybe? idk its weird and complicated. but being with her makes all that shit worth it. she makes me so happy. anyways... Ive been busy as hell lately. it sux. ive been workin like 4 days a week on top of my 3 a.p. classes and its way too much. oh well. im doin decent in school i guess. maybe 1 or 2 Bs. i hope thats all. k i guess thats all i have to say. | | |
| I havent written for a long ass time. Not much to write about but im bored so I'm goin to anyways. Schools close to being over, which is a good thing. I only did work in one class today and it only took me like half the class period. Some of the day was boring but it was mostly fun. I've had a 76 or less in my Chem. class for the last 3 weeks or so and today i finally brought it up to a B with two little assignments somehow. I think I'm gunna have a good 4th quarter report card. Maybe like a 3.8 or 3.9. That would be nice. Uhh..... Im so bored. Man... bein single sucks. I mean its cool bein able to just flirt with whoever the hell u want, but after a while it gets old. Whenever I'm in a relationship I feel like I have more of a purpose and all that good stuff. lol. The worst part is I've had some really cool girls in a lot of my classes that Ive liked and either Im just an idiot when it comes to this kind of thing or none of them really seemed interested. Whatever.. enough being emo. lol. Im goin to see Testament next friday and its the original line-up. I cant wait. Its gunna kick so much ass.Im not gunna b able to sleep for like a week after that show. Im gunna go do something other than write about a bunch of pointless shit no one cares about. haha. | | |
| I feel like shit. Unimportantly, I'm exhausted from so much band practice, but the main thing is my grandpa is dying. I know its probly a good thing cuz hes been slowly dying since before I was even born and my grandma has had to take care of him for that long too and I think she is finally ready to let go. Apparently, he is pretty much unable to communicate and he gets even grumpier and frustrated than he used when he is around people. I'm trying to go up to ohio this weekend before he dies, but idk if he'll last that long. On top of this, its making me loses what very little belief I had in god, which i hate because i was very religious for a long time. For a while i have believed that all the stuff in the bible was bullshit, but i still believed that there was a god. But now, with all this bad stuff like the tsunami and my grandpa dying and that kinda of thing, i dont even want to believe in a god that would let that kind of thing happen. I dont feel like typin anymore. | | |
| I hate Dante. And the Coolkids is the worst band ever. | | |
| Man sumthin just happened that pissed me off so damn bad. My grandfather started saying all this b/s about my dad to my rick's parents (rick is my moms bf) , who have never met my dad before. Now when they meet him theyre gunna think hes the worst guy alive and stuff which isnt true at all. And anyways i called up my mom to tell him to shutup and then she told my grandma who went out and yelled at him in front of everyone. So anyways he came and appologized and was like "im sorry for sayin that kind of stuff in earshot of u" and I dont even care that he said it in front of me, its that it wasnt his place to say anything at all and on top of that it was just a bunch of bull. So basically today sucked, but it will get better cuz we have a x-mas eve party every year and its usually pretty fun. I hope we dont have to go to church tho cuz i really dont feel like it. | | |
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