Laying on my bed this morning I just couldn't seem to get the energy to get up. I lay there not able to go back to sleep or relax, but not ready to get up and face the day. Maybe it was the dread knowing as soon as I got up I would be faced with the responsibility that where just waiting for me. I could hear my brothers down stairs running around doing what ever they were, in full speed. I lazily got out of bed, right away found something warmer to put on, and headed down stairs to find something to eat,(ofcaurse I brushed my teeth first), Looked around all there where to see were the dishes in the sink just waiting to be done, my brothers doing school, and the clock on the oven saying 11:00, guess I was a little late for breakfast.  Meeting my mom, I found out that I had been wanted down-stairs for quite a while, oops. I then went to start the heater in the bathroom (so it would be nice and warm for me to take a shower), then to fold my clothes, get a towel and get back to the shower... Meanwhile, my mom is telling my brother to go get in the shower.    uh, my shower? The bathroom I just warmed up? I did all my clothes, no way she could mean that! Then she wanted me to go and do my dishes. Jared has a booking so he gets the shower first. Oh well of caurse he should, I sort of smarted of to my mom saying. Then I got in trouble. So I took off mad.

Then I start to think about it. How long has my mom been up? Did she sleep in? Would she think about going and taking time for her self before she taught my brothers school, or fixed us breakfast? How selfish of me. How could I stand there and smart off to my mother, the one who the Lord has put over me in life. I am one of the older kids in the house I should be doing all I can to set an example for my brothers. The Lord makes it a commandment to honor thy Father and mother. I started my day out bad because I was thinking about how basketball is going and other struggles in my life. But the Lord has put me where I am today and I can not have this kind of altitude. So I went and apologized to my mom. I feel so horrible for being that way to her. No mater what I may be going through, I need to find the joy of the Lord in what ever I may be doing. I should be doing everything for the glory of the Lord.

For any of yall who are going through tough times right now. The Lord is right there and he cares about you so much, and he knows everything your going through and how much you can handle. Though its hard to understan some times, its all about haveing faith. So everythingyou are through is going to be all good, because the Lord is in control! And hes amazing!!!

Jessica

Guess what some awesome News!!! I'm going to be an Aunt again!!!

Today my nephew is one year old!!! He is having a cowboy party! How cute is that, hes so cute! I cant wait to see him get his first piece of cake, dont worry I will get pictures. : )

Last night I had a game, we won 42-27. I had such a bad head-ack and now its worse.( Stupid tea, I dont know how David could be alive right now, lol) I made a lot of stupid passes, hate my self, why cant I see that the girl is going to go right there, why cant I just fake and make a good pass. Err...... I love basketball! I cant wait for this summer, I have a lot plained! 

I'm so happy,  I got to talk to my best friend tonight! I miss her so much. K when you get back we are going for a night out! I love you! You can always make me smile. 

Umm.... so what else is going on? Well Valentines day is comming up. Fun times. kinda wierd to think last Valentines day was a year ago, It seems like not that long ago.

I'm reading this scary book right now, or I think it is. Its called On The Street Where You Live, by Mary Higgins Clark. I really like it, I love to read but I havent in so long. But I'm starting up and staying with it.

I have a chance to go to Germany this summer for like 2 to 3 months as a nanny and make a LOT of money. But I dont know if its going to work out. I have some other things plained so IDK. Pray for me about it please.

Ok well time for bed, ttyl

LOVE YA,

JESS

Hey everyone what's up?

You know what I hate, I hate people that try to act like other then who they are. But you know what I hate more then that people who are so bad at it and think they can get away with it. Just stop it already your not getting your self any where.

I went to the lake country v-boys game tonight, they played not so great and won. Talked to coach Etch about this summer, cant wait. Man I miss summer, everything about it is better, I loose weight in the summer, its hot out so I can run and work out, and its easier to get up in the mornings.

I love my brothers... I just love them they are so sweet, they really do so much that they don't know I notice ,and I just cant wait to see them grow up to be Godly men. I was thinking about it the other day that some day they will all be taller then me and so handsome and I'm sure polite(I'm training them,) and I just cant wait for that time, though I wouldn't trade this time with them for anything. Don't worry girls I will make sure they I will be true gentlemen the only thing you will haft to worry about it me  ERR, so be scared.

So girls go do something nice for you brothers today! They really do love you. lol

LOVE YA,

JESS

So which of my sisters do I look like? Not that you can really see us in the picture.

School brake is awesome! I'm so not ready for it to end.

I had a crazy new years, wow fun stuff. I have a barn did yall know that?

Basketball is going a little better. My shot is good, I have been practicing with the Lake country v-boys some. Hard work out but so worth it.

Well g2g LOVE YA,

JESS