| So ive recently made an upgrade... if you have a myspace feel free to leave me your url because you won't see me here no more! peace out my homies! <3 |
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| Spring Break, thus far, sucks. Its odd to think that the most fun I have had so far was at work. Well I guess I shouldn't say that considering I did technically see 300 on spring break, which by the way amazing. Im not very happy with things lately. All day I have been sitting on my couch watching Americans Next top Model Marathon. Nothing like television and pretty faces to make you realize how boring real life truely is. I had to take a midterm exam during spring break. I have zero cash but plenty of bills. I just want school to be over. I really hope that everything I have worked so hard for in life actually happens. I am afraid of struggling. My main goal in life is to be a good mother. I would never be selfish and bring a child into an unstable enviornment. I fear that maybe I will never have a stable enviornment, financially anyways. My whole life I was poor and I think that is why I desire only the best of things, but the best of things are very expensive! I never want to live that way again, but I worry that my spending habits now could ruin everything. Im only 21 years old and already about fifteen grand in debt. I wish that my mother would have been there for me growing up. I don't let it show but it really hurts. At least I have my grandmother but she is getting old. I hope she knows how much she really means to me. I can't help but feel depressed sometimes. I feel like there is no one to comfort me emotionally. Sure Ryan is really great at making me smile sometimes, but maybe its my own fault. Maybe Im just not good at letting people deep in. |
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| Thats it! Enough is Enough! |
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| okay... forget prior claim. I would like this snow to go away! Hurry up summer. PRP this weekend followed by an ikea trip, fantastic. <3 |
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| I wish just one day we could get one good snow storm. How long has it been... like 5 years? way too long if you ask me. There is really no point for winter to even exsist if there is no snow!? So I say bring on summer! <3 |
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