Oh yes. this will be public. So I went to school today, never so scared to step onto a university campus in my life, not even the first day at both schools. I looked around, checked my surroundings and such. I had heard that people where doing bomb threats to schools and it kind of made me uneasy about going back. I get to class...and everyone acted like nothing happened. Like 32 people didn't die. No one said a thing about it all day. And it really got to me.
I know, I know, people shouldn't sit and just dwell over something, but still. I was completely shocked. I expected people to at least be a bit freaked out by it, and be at least a little freaked out by the fact that it was so so so easy for that guy to just walk in and start shooting people. I mean, it was freaking me out before I got there. It makes me very unhappy with those who were around me today. No one was upset. No one did ANYTHING. And I don't feel that it was right. I was looking over stuff from the shooter today while i was just sitting around. I don't understand why something couldn't have been done sooner. He was obviously very mentally ill. It doesn't make sense to me how someone who writes things like he wrote, says things like he said to people, and does things like stalk innocent girls, was able to even make it to his senior year at a technical college, university, whatever. Any type of higher learning school. Why couldn't something be done? I'm just so angry with the situation. So angry that so many innocent, loving, caring people who weren't doing anything but going to class (which is a lot more than most college students) had to die such a horrific death. There was no reasoning for it. And it worries me to see the world turn into this. Just killing people because you felt like it. Its not right, its not fair. No matter how many times someone will say 'We can't make sense of what happened' I want to so badly. The entire situation confuses me...I just don't get it. All of those who had to be involved in the actions that happened Monday, all of those who lost someone special in their lives, I give you my best wishes and prayers. | 
