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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

i read this first at juno hair last year, i think. i really liked it so i bothered to look it up. it's got a good thing to say-- 

나의 가장 약한 부분을 사랑하라 by 정호승

사람마다 약한 부분이 있습니다.
누구나 자기만의 단점이 있습니다.
그런 점은 외형적인 것이든 내면적인 것이든
누가 말하지 않아도 자기 자신이 가장 잘 압니다.
그래서 대부분 그런 부분은 
남이 잘 볼 수 없고 알 수 없도록 감추려고 애를 씁니다.
물론 드러내놓고 싶지 않는 게 사람의 마음입니다.
사람은 누구나 다 못생기고 
약한 부분이 있기 때문에 인간입니다.
약한 부분이 한 군데도 없는 육체와 영혼을 가지는
완벽한 인간은 없습니다.
누구나 다 좋은 것만으로 형성돼 있다면
인간의 인간다움과 아름다움은 상실되고 맙니다.
이런저런 약한 부분들이 모여
인간이라는 건강한 전체를 이룹니다.
내게 약한 부분이 없었으면 하고 바라지만 
그것이 없어지면 또 다른 약점이 나타나
나를 괴롭힐 수도 있습니다.
따라서 그 부분이 없어지기를 바라기 전에
그 부분을 먼저 사랑하는 일이 더 중요합니다. 
나의 가장 약한 부분이 나중에 
나의 가장 좋은 부분이 될 수 있습니다.
어쩌면 그 부분 때문에 내게 더 인간적인
매력이 있는지 모릅니다.
가장 못생긴 나무가 산을 지키는
고목이 된다는 것을 우리는 잘 알고 있습니다. 
저는 저의 가장 약한 부분을 사랑합니다. 
저의 큰 약점을 작게 생각하고 감추기보다는
드러내고 살펴봅니다.  
어쩌다가 자기비하의 마음이 생기면 
그 마음을 자기애의 마음으로 곧 전환시킵니다.
자기를 스스로 보살피는 마음,
자기를 스스로 존중하는 마음,
자기를 스스로 책임질 줄 아는 마음이 있을 때
남을 진정 사랑할 수 있습니다. 
나의 가장 약한 부분을 사랑하라.
저는 제 자신에게 늘 그렇게 말해왔습니다.


to balance out the entry, here's the babelfish translation of the poem.
yeah it's pretty ridiculous :P kinda makes korean poetry look bad, but i swear the poem's good.
it's about loving the weakest part of yourself, and how these weaknesses make you more human. new year resolutions can be great, but most of the time it's about fixing some aspect about yourself you view as a weakness, an imperfection. some resolutions are good, but i think it's also important to learn how to love those imperfections that make you more yourself and human.


Every the person there is a weak part. Anyone there is a weak
point only of self. If like that point does not talk is the external
form thing puts out the enemy the thing is cumulation and own oneself
knows most well.

It is like that and the most like that portion not to be a possibility
the south seeing well and the possibility of knowing in order not to
be, it hides it writes the child. Of course it distinguishes and it
does not want putting to it is a mind of the person.

The person anyone is ugly all and it is a human being because the weak
part is. Is not a human being which is perfect has the flesh and the
soul where the weak part is not one place. If with only the anyone all
it is formed good thing, with the human being multi bud of the human
being it is beautiful it is lost and it is rolled up. Like this it is
like that and the weak parts Fall in accomplish the whole which is
healthy is a human being.

It puts out and a weak part and there is not to do it wishes but when
it will lose and also the different weakness will appear and will
carry and there is a water service which will bother. Consequently the
portion that loses before wishing, the day when it loves the portion
that first is more important.

The weak part me most finally there is a possibility becoming the
portion where me is good most. It puts out possibly because of the
portion that and compared to there probably is a human being charm, it
does not know. The dead tree where the most ugly tree defends the
mountain becomes us is knowing the thing well.

I secret intention love the weak part most. Secret intention it thinks
a big weakness small and step which it hides it wears out and to
observe to distinguish it tries.

The mind under own rain gets casually and it converts that mind at
once with mind of own child. The mind which respects a mind and the
self which take care a self oneself oneself, self it will bear
responsibility oneself and will decrease and when being the mind which
it knows the true feelings which will remain it will be able to love.

Love the weak part me, most. I will increase in my oneself and i
talked like that and i came.


Monday, January 01, 2007

year of the pig.

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happy new year!

where did 2006 go, seriously. this year instead of making a long list of resolutions i know i can't keep, i have just one: running the chicago marathon. i came into college with the goal of achieving a 4.0 one quarter and completing a marathon (i miss x-c), and since one of the goals seems highly unlikely, i'm gonna invest in the other. it could be the last chance i have to do it, so... to make sure i do it, i registered online already. which explains why i only have $35 in my bank account. anywho, YOU SHOULD RUN IT TOO.

time to pack up and go back to evanston. my liver's happy to be going back to a country where i'm not allowed to drink.


Saturday, October 28, 2006

i've had a couple of people tell me that i'd make a good doctor. and it's not because they think i have an aptitude for science, or because they see me as a people person-- i'm really lacking in both areas-- but because they take notice of my handwriting. why are doctors notorious for having bad penmanship?

 Picture 210

a sample of my good (awake) notes from art class.

i guess i do have the handwriting of a crazy person.


Wednesday, October 04, 2006

tonight a coupla us were looking at the awkward arrangement of pictures by grace's bed, and i pointed out the picture from CUP where i'm like... twice the size of everybody else. this one isn't it, but i sure do miss these two (deborah don't deny it-- your avoidant self misses me, too).

aileens 054

the good times, the FAT times.

haha. come back, fools.


Monday, September 18, 2006

house centipedes

me and yujin looked up different kinds of disgusting bugs after we saw one scuttle across my wall, and the one that likes making cameos at my place is this one. i guess i should be happy i don't have roaches or ants, and these actually eat other insects. still, they're really creepy. buuuut i killed my first house centipede yesterday night! i no longer need other people doing my dirty work. altho, i do sorely miss the presence of my screaming roommate and the various boys or jeenah who would come to kill them.



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