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| This is just for Chris.
Love ya kiddo!
Hit up my cell. | | |
| I want her to be happy. I love her more then anything else, ever ever ever.
My best friend ever tells me to go for it because me happy = her happy but........sometimes there's more to life then selfishness.
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| It's killing me, tearing me apart, give me one good reason, not to put that bullet through my heart. Shoot me one more time, this time aim to win. Hit that target just for fun, get my mind off of them, keep the blade close, shooting others is a sin. Hold me close, kill me now, shoot the bullet through, take that gun, load and lock, he said he loved me, sadly I believed him too.
I want to kill myself, I think this might be the first time I've ever said that and ment it.I cna't stand living anymore. Give me pills with vodka chasers, give me razors with no way to stop the bleeding. Give me a rope and a closet with a door, give me anything to stop this pain. It's ripping me apart, I can't handle it anymore
I CAN'T TAKE IT, SAVE ME
Actually...nothing can save me anymore......nothing. | | |
| Yeah. So, I messed up and made a post on sissy's xanga with this xanga sn....back to the drawing board for me. | | |
| Wow.......times change so fast. But, i refuse to drip myself into this drama anymore, I dont' need it. I can't wait until I'm out of highschool, acutally, I can't wait until i get a chance to move I'd take it in a heartbeat. Too many people, too many opinons, too many people telling me just exactly how awful I am , well you know what? I'm so tired of it!!!!!!!!!!! I have had like a bijillion anxiety attacks in the past 5 weeks, most of which i dont' evne let my family know about, i refuse to let them see me as week but, that's what i am, weak. If i'm supposedly so strong...wwhy can't I get over him and why can't i just deal with him being an ASSHOLE to me, why why why?
I never expected things to stay to same but, i didn't expect them to change like this either....mi world is spinning, faster faster, can somebody please make it stop?? I dont' need all of this stress, can soembody, pretty pretty pretty please make it all go away?
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