| Love and hate have fucked over my entire life. |
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| I sort of started dating my older brother's best friend, Jordan. Sort of in the sense that we've only been on two dates and I still have no idea what's going on in his head. But whatever, I'm happy. This has the potential of being really healthy. =)
I can't wait to take some time off. I could really use a break from this job. And I will especially need one after this week. Our Admin Asst is out for the week so I have to sit at her desk up front. Which means I can't do ANY of my work because she doesn't have the programs I use on her computer. Not only will I have to sit up front with nothing to do right in front of my boss's office while I answer phones, but I get to deal with Naomi, our HR director. She's the laziest, fat bitch on earth. She always makes Amanda do all her dirty work. And since Amanda isn't here, I get to do all this shit that is completely below me. Whatever, she's the worst HR director on earth. But today is almost over, in two days I will be spending Thanksgiving with my family, and in three days I will be on my way to College Station with Jordan. =D
In two weeks I will have one year of sobriety! Yay. I'm probably going to celebrate by going to dinner with all my friends. Except I keep thinking of more people I want to invite and that seems like too much trouble so I probably won't do a damn thing lol. Whatever. I'm very excited. One year is a long time. |
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| I just went through like 3 years of journal entries. I've changed so much. I don't even recognize that girl anymore.
Oh man and the drama with the breakup? Wow. How fucking retarded. Haha.
Sooooooo I'm bored at work. I'm going to go smoke soon. I'm going to dye my hair tonight. I'm seeing Eisley Sunday night. I have a crush on my older brother's best friend. We cuddled. It was good times. I'm happy. Things are cool. *Shrugs*
I'm boring when I'm happy. |
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| I like it better when there's nothing going on that's too obvious for me to ignore. Denial is not as bad as everyone makes it out to be. I much prefered believing I was happy and life was good. Life is still good and I'm okay. But I'm sad that I was wrong. Even though I knew in my head the truth, my heart believed something different...and I am really going to miss that. |
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| I'm tired of this one way friendship. It shouldn't be this hard, and I shouldn't be the only one trying.
There's this new guy downstairs at C&C who fell in love with me today. Poor thing was scared to even ask if he could bum a cigarette off of me. And when he did he sucked it down as fast as possible and just kept staring at me. I tried to make things a little less awkward and made up some random conversations..told him I was moving and he offered to help me move hahaha. He's cute, I feel bad for him...he really needs to tune into the Pick-Up Artist on VH1 and get some tips. Ha.
But yeah it was a little creepy too lol.
I don't want to go to Spring Branch tonight. But I like that meeting...regardless of who might be there. So I'll go. I'm just not going to engage in this fucking game any longer.
Oh yeah. I apparently sat on a sticky note and walked around with it on my ass half of the day. Fabulous lol. |
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