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Name: Tiff
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Birthday: 10/23/1984
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Monday, March 17, 2008

i had an interesting conversation with a friend earlier tonight, its about a couple and of course the case of an EX...so here goes the scenario (this is going to be in my point of view, if you are the opposite sex just think of opposite gender terms...all characters are fictional):

my boyfriend, who i recently got with...we went through a lot issues thanks to his EX, whom had recently returned from a mysteriously silent disappearance...they had been a couple for a good amount of time and shared a deep and meaningful relationship...but one day the girl left without any explanation or sign...my boyfriend, devastated by her action was in denial about her disappearance, and choose to wait for her...he believed that she would return to him one day with very good explanation... years passed and we finally meet...we were both interested in each other but again he was too in denial to starting anything with me...but i insisted and waited and eventually he came to his senses...just as we were on the verge of starting our relationship...the EX-girlfriend came back...(a little dramatic but stick with the story) she came back looking for my boyfriend, and as he hoped she had very good explanation for her disappearance (i.e an almost dying health condition)...my boyfriend at that moment felt stuck...one the love of his life came back to him and here i am, the girl he was about to finally start a  new relationship with...but of course he chose to give his ex another chance, i mean the girl almost died...its not like she left him for another guy...any who as they got back and things were slowly coming together...my boyfriend realized that he didn't feel the same way about his ex...he felt sorry, pity, and worried about her health but not love or passion he used to feel towards her...he had thought about me constantly...so he decided to break it off with her and start a new relationship with me...of course i was happy that my feeling are finally being reciprocated, i mean i did wait for a long time and had to give an extra push in this relationship...but just when thing were going steady and good for us... his ex throws out one last request...she wished for my boyfriend to go on a mini vacation with her..something to do with her almost death experience... of course my boyfriend felt the need to go with her...this was like the last baggage between them, he wants to go on this trip as resolving whatever feelings they had for each other...

now the questions is should i let him go without even 2nd doubting about us?
i mean i know the saying let him go if he comes back then you know he is yours? but i also believe that let him go and it might be the end of our relationship. of course i want him to be free from his ex, and i want to start a new and happy  relationship with him, but for me to watch him go on trip with his ex...i don't think anyone with a sane mind would say ok go, i'll be waiting for you... yes she is sick, and she may or may not die, but does that mean i have to wait until she does before i actually get my boyfriend back (not saying or wishing that she will die)? i love this guy...i mean duh why else would i have waited for him or put up with this whole crazy scenario? i definitely do not want to be the bad guy here but i would not be able to stand to know that he is with her... he may no longer love her the same way...but feelings are tricky, what if he never returns? or what if something else happens? i don't think its a trust issue, its the fact that i don't want him to leave me (i hope i don't want to sound to possessive) yes its his life he can do whatever he wants or go wherever he wants...but i am the girlfriend don't i have the right to say how i feel about it? i understand perfectly that he wants to support his ex... i mean if i am dying (knocks on wood) i would want him to be there for me... i just want him to know how uncomfortable i feel about the situation...BUT if he insist on going i would suggest that they take me along... again i want to emphasized its NOT that i don't trust him, i believe that this is a very sensitive area, if his ex means that much to him, she means a good amount to me as well(really she would)...i would want to be there to give her support as well...IF he insist that he goes alone with her...then i would break it off with him...i know i know i waited so long for him i might as well wait a little longer..but its just that he is with me now, i should mean something to him...my feelings should be counted for, even though it may not be the most important factor..the thought about him being far away from me with his ex would make me feel real insecure (not saying he would cheat or anything)..BUT if i do decide to wait for him and they ended up getting back together or if he finds someone else while he was vacationing...knowing that i've been doing nothing but waited for him would just kill me..so to spare myself from this pain i would choose to end things with him before he leaves...

so now here is the question for you guys...if you guys were me...what would you do? would you let him go and wait for without saying anything?
i'm not being tOo overly possessive or have trusting issues do i now?



Thursday, January 24, 2008

a lil bet i made with a friend =) gonna have a free MAID muhahahhahahhaahha >=)

rolo
(9:28:27 PM):
roland don't need this
rolo (9:28:34 PM): i have plenty of ppl willing to work for me
me(9:29:11 PM): hahah i'm lOoking forward to meeting them
me (9:29:22 PM): just FIND one person that is willing to dress up and clean for you
me (9:29:34 PM): if you can... i'll clean your place up for FREE
rolo(9:29:35 PM): OO plenty
rolo(9:29:40 PM): OooOO!!!
rolo(9:29:41 PM): u talk big
rolo(9:29:44 PM): u said it!!!!
rolo (9:29:52 PM): don't regret!!! U SAID IT!!!!
me (9:30:06 PM): yeah but they gotta wear the princess leila bikini outfit
me (9:30:10 PM): cleaning your place
me (9:30:15 PM): and i gotta be there to witness it
rolo (9:31:55 PM): ok i will!~
rolo (9:31:58 PM): don't regret!!!
rolo (9:32:05 PM): i'll see u at work in a month!
rolo (9:32:12 PM): just get the uniforms ready!
me (9:32:13 PM): hahahhaha
me (9:32:19 PM): i said i'm willing to clean
me (9:32:22 PM): not dress in uniforms
rolo (9:33:23 PM): haha
rolo (9:33:26 PM): oh ur cleaning all right
me (9:34:12 PM): hahah you said in a month
me (9:34:31 PM): but the end of the month if i dun see this hot chick friend of yours in costume
me (9:34:35 PM): you gotta clean FOR ME
rolo (9:34:48 PM): what?!
rolo (9:34:51 PM): hot chick
rolo (9:34:52 PM): no...
rolo (9:34:57 PM): that wasn't part of the deal
rolo (9:34:59 PM): nonono....
me (9:35:05 PM): FIND your FRIEND then
rolo (9:35:09 PM): i will!
rolo (9:35:18 PM): muahahhahahha
rolo (9:35:21 PM): MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
me (9:35:39 PM): this conversation is going on my xanga
me (9:35:42 PM): as proof
me (9:35:43 PM): hahahhah

rolo (12:05:04 AM): ok i'll buy u dinner if u look for a job



Wednesday, January 02, 2008

happy holidays guys =) i hope you all had a wonderful christmas and new  years... i got to spend christmas eve with jay chou yay!!! although i am kinda disappointed that he didn't sing much aside that the concert was super short...but i know he didn't have his voice...he sounded kinda sick...hopefully he is ok...other than jay's concert the next best thing that happened was sarah and cyn's visit =) they arrived on the afternoon of new years eve, we went to hing lung to eat joOk...cuz poor sarah had recently removed her wisedom teeth so she couldn't eat anything solid...after that we went downtown to shop...and thanks to the both of them i found my dress at macy's...at night we had take out from d&a and ate at my place while we watch how i met your mother season 2 (HIMYM)...afterwards we got ready for the nite...we went to regency for a NYE party and that was fun...we toOk tons of pic and i had a few more drinks than i should've but i was ok...didn't puke or anything...i tOok it like a man hahah anyways according to sarah all i'd talked about that nite was cyn's boobs...i'm loving them...hahah cyn said i can touch it anytime i want...and i shall the next time you two visit...i hope that doesn't make me sound toO hom sup but her boObs are 100% natural and GIAGANTOR bigger than gianormous =X on new year's day ppl (well everyone except me) slept in and went to eat pho...afterwards we went shopping for a lil bit...then went to eat at gong nam yow yet chun for dinner...came back to my place and played tabOo while we waited for fat boi to picked us up to play pOol...the wong sisters against the huang sisters and of course the wongs won =)...anyways fat bOi picked us up and we went to family to shoot poOl....god i suck at that...but i'm proud to say i BEAT SARAH =) hahhaha its ok sarah i'm sure i just got lucky that game...but it was pretty funny...went to kowloon tong to eat dessert and came home watch a lil more HIMYM then slept...today we woke up around 9ish and went yum cha...we ate hecka food even without sarah's help...afterwards came back to my place and finish watching season 2 of HIMYM and walked sarah and cyn to their car...said our goodbyes and walked home and here i am now updating...i hope the two of you guys made it home safe and sound and hope to see you guys soon...in MARCH i shall be here...lol can't wait till you guys next visit...alrite enuff of my update...ooh before i go i wanna share my new years resolution with you all...goal #1 be as happy as i can...goal #2 be less fake around ppl...goal #3 continue to believe the best in ppl and avoid assholes...goal #4 MOST IMPORTANT ONE lose my tummy =X wish me luck guys...and i hope you all had a safe and fun break =) HAPPY HOLIDAYS again


Sunday, October 21, 2007

wow wat a weekend =) i had a blast i hope everyone that showed up had just as much fun as me =) thank you all for making me feel special and not a DAY OLDER! lol a lil recap of what happened THURSDAY went down to sj...to find that class was cancelled...so i pretty much stayed at fat boi's place and watch transformer...it was good =) BUMBLE BEE is coOl hahahha...met up with ruby to change her head light then we went for some ice cream...mmm mm basket robins =) at night we went to d&b to pre-celebrate me and danny's birthday, had tons of fun playing games and drinking...afterwards went back to the city...thank you gordon for driving me home =) FRIDAY we went out to dinner at elephant bar and the stoOpid lady made a mistake on our reservation so we had to wait...after dinner went to a bar in marina matrix and it was really packed so we went to nags where i got fucked up omG i took like 3 GIANORMOUS shots and drank a royal fucked with johnson that pretty much made my night so i yaked and afterwards i drank another gianormous shot...on SATURDAY woke up with a headache and so i was planning to stay home to recover but got talked into going clubbing so ended up at suede and drank a shit load again...a lot of dancing and a lot of drinking...SUNDAY my recovery day woke up pretty early to watch my shows...pretty much a laid back day and had dinner with charles...went to dinner at sushi rock and he got me mini cakes...i was really surprised cuz i was teasing him saying that was his lunch box or something...anyways thank you charles for dinner and the gift and the cakes =) even though mine was ruined it was still goOd...
a lil thank you notes to the gifts i got
GORDON for the flask set...i will try to put it in good use and if i become an alcoholic you'll KNOW WHY
SJO & RAY RAY for prison break season 2 even though i dun even have season 1 but whatevers lol =X j/k you know i'll enjoy it cuz of wentworth miller so freaking hot
MOTHER for a boOk i will put to good use as well..except for the salad part =X
PIG PIG, TENILE, MAY, JOHNSON & FAT BOI for the swarovski piggy, and the apple perfume =) you guys know me well hehe
ANGELA for the swarvoski sheep even though i have that already, in which i exchanged for the two mice
LYNNBUTT, SEUMAS & PEE PEE for the coin sorter and coin wrapper with a set of AE set of sweats =)
CHARLES for the coach scarf its so pretty =) key chain and most importantly the mini cakes =)
BINH for a very cute eeyore figure...love it =)
DANNY * the other birthday boy* thank you for HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER season 2 =) i'm enjoying it very much =)
thank you all =)




Thursday, September 27, 2007

i hope this person reads this:
you know who you are...this year what i really want for my birthday is very simple...a VIP ticket to jay chou's concert...i'm really lOoking forward to seeing him and i hope i get to see him up close.
p.s i also hope this other person will go to the concert with me thats all =X



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