i feel like updating....

 sometimes i feel like life is lacking momentum. i dunno there are just things i want to happen so badly and i dont know how to make them happen, i dont know if its me or other people. i think i just need to accept it...but i dont think i will, accepting is like giving up and im not going to give up on my goals....or something of the sort. there is not much about myself i would change, and im really happy for that. i think about the condition i was in this time last year and i would never want to be there again in my life...ever. it was the the begining of the worst couple months i have ever had.i am so glad that i finally found peace and quit everything that i had done. i tore myself apart for so long about rediculous things that shouldnt have effected me but i did...i look at myself sometimes and wonder how i could do the things i did to myself. i had people that would have been there for me but i disregarded it because i was too busy being in my own self pity to see the good in life. there is only a few things i can complain about in life now...and they arent even real issues and im so thankful for that. i know that if i overcome them i will be an amazing person and i will be able to live life fully. im glad i can finally see that.

kay im done <3 <3 <3