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Friday I went with Chris and Sabe to Borders. We love our books. I got kinda sick of Chris's attitude so I called up Vicki and went over there. Rynn Christine and Annelise came too! Vicki and Christine spent the night.

Yesterday my mom came down and picked up Sabe Vicki and I and took us back to the beach. It was major beautiful and major hot. We were tanning and sweating it was gross. We chilled in my mom's house for a lil while and watch Pleasentville. Cute movie. I went home and fell asleep. like 4 people called and woke me up different times. I dont even remember what i talked to them about. I felt drunk even though i wasnt. I was major tired.

Today I have no clue what i am doing. YEp YEp YEp!

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Today was the first day back to school. Everything was ok but at the same time it wasnt. I like all my classes except for my english class. I think I might have some trouble in that class.

My life is really crazy right now. Mainly with my family. My brother is back in jail and the other brother is getting into some drugs that he shouldnt be. Both of their lives right now are fucked up and I can't help myself but think if I will end up like either of them. I don't want to go down that path but sometimes I don't think straight and end up being stupid, wheather its with drinking or smoking. As much as it hurts me to think this, but I blame my father. I love my old man to death but its scary to think that that man has hurt me on so many levels. He, in my mind, is the reason to why my siblings are in the spot that they are now. The only person that has ever tried to make me feel like I belong to a loving, caring family is my mom. And what do I do to show her that I respect and love her? Nothing. It makes me sick how I can treat someone so loyal so caring so loving and so trusting like crap. I lie to the one person who has always been there. My dad thinks I will screw things up again this year. Well I decided that wont happen. I need to get my act togeather. I have said that so much and I continuously fuck myself over. All I can do is try and put my heart and soul into making the best out of myself.

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yesterday was alil mind boggaling. Sabe Armenta and I hung out. We went to Pitts Park and played a lil basketball and then it got a lil emotional. It kinda sucked. I hung out with Tyler and Justin at the tennis courts. they had fun taking my phone and calling everyone. Sorry to the ones they called! I got home around like 10 and put togeather a puzzle Sabe never got to finish. And guess what! My drunk alcoholic uncle decided to come over at like midnight. It was major scary. I hate it when he is like that. I didnt get to bed till around 440 cuz well...i just couldnt sleep. I had A LOT of things on my mind!

Today Sabe came over and we did another puzzle. we baked a cake and then i had to go to the doctors. My dad and I spent some good quality time togeather. That was nice because we had no fights. I miss us being friends. Well i think i am going to go.

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wow its been awhile...hmmmm

Tuesday I woke up super early again to go to Scorpion Connect. LAME! I got my classes and it sucked cuz it just reminded me that school is starting really soon. Then my mom picked me up and we had lunch. My dad took me shopping. and when I got back Vicki, Christine, Ashlie Jo and I went swimming.

Wensday I basically sat around all day until around 3 I think. Chris and Sabe came and picked me up and we went to the Jann's Mall! We were going to eat pizza there but there were flies and ummm well, the pizza looked like plastic. So we just went to Dennys. We shopped for like oh ummm maybe 15 minutes. But we had some major fun in Toys R Us!

Thursday I woke up again major early to go to the freshman orientation. I actully thought it wouldnt be that fun, bu tit was. I got an ok group. A lot of them were very shy and that kinda sucked cuz I am far from that. After vicki and I decided to order a pizza and just sit around. She had practice so I went to hang with Sabe and we decided to walk down to Rynn's to see if floppy was ok. On the way this guy told us to come to a party! So Vicki came down and we walked back to this guy's house and there was like no party at all! SUPER GAY! we hung out at my house and Vicki was funny cuz she was sooo tired. Vicki went home so Chris Sabe and I went to Jack in the Box. Sabe Drove and she kept stalling! It was funny!

Now yesterday was fun! My mom picked me up and we went shopping! and i got lots and lots of things! Like Jessica Simpson's Dessert lip gloss! i love it! 

Today Rynn comes home!!!! YAY!!! I missed her sooo much! I think I might go see a movie with her and Armenta. who knows....well im off to take a shower cuz i stink!