December

holidays are ending... its ending! its sad, but its ending. well, what can i hope for in the year to come? what can i be glad for in the year 2007? well so many things have happened this year, i dont know where to start, nor where to end. this has been a fantastic year for me, and i feel that December, is really the time to appreciate the ones you love, and love the ones you appreciate.

I dont much remember what happened at the beginnig of 07. the shift in school? the new people, faces... being in a different environment. the beginning was fun. what came after the beginning was slightly trying. struggling with coping with canoeing and tennis, and feeling very lost and dreading school each day because of inadequacy. feeling moody in school because of friends matters, and facing lessons without a purpose. gradually i was biologically adapted to sleeping in class... and i made some nice friends. i guess part of the time i didnt really know where i belonged, and then i guess some how i fit in. i dont know how, but somehow i felt like i did. i made special friends, and i lost special friends. studies was exceptionally horrible because term tests were not suuficiently prepared for. yet somehow, term reports came back alright. umm, made new friends. friends that i might have thought that i could grow old with (haha.) well, lifelong friends, i had thought. made some good decisions, made some bad decisions. torrents of guilt, and the consequences. turbulent moodswings... so many things have happened. okay up there was mostly school stuff. church stuff... well, what can i say? yeh i love it there and i thank God for all the friends i have made in church.

its a pity that i cant remember all the good things that have happened, because i know they were many. but like the good things, the bad things have long left my mind. i guess thats good yeh?

i want to thank God though, because this year has really been one of growth. not so much physical, but God really made me do a lot of thinking. at the beginning of the year i thought with my brains. now, i think with more than just my head. i dont neccesarily think fast, but i think hard, and i think long, and eventually i got pieces. how else have i grown? i feel like i have changed, in a good way. im still changing, but the changes that have surfaces, are actually quite good.

okay i am not talking sense here. this post was supposed to be on appreciating.

i appreciate alot of people. i appreciate God for all he's done. in my life and in the lives of my friends. i appreciate him for giving me into the company of good friends. friends that have really stuck things through with me. fair-weathered friends, i still thank them. because they have made my fair weathered days more fun than it would have been without them... and my parents, for hoping in me. sigh, you know what. i think this is probably one of the best years of my life. well ive had 15. this is just one. if i could have 1 good year out of every 15 years, i would be contented. but if even if i live to 90, i will only have 4 good years. but you know what? it doesnt work that way. Thank God! haha, yep the next year will supercede this one and much as i hate change, change is what gets you to hold on. hold on tigher, and faster.