I've been studying for my exams but some things keep bothering me, so I think I'll just write them here. I've been a Christian for more than a year now, I can notice some changes in me although not much. For example, before I received Jesus in my life, I got angry easily and got offended over very little things. When I did bad things to people I didn't feel as much guilty as I do now. I think the Holy Spirit is working to convict me of my bad behaviour that I feel bad as soon as I hurt other people or I think I do anyway, sometimes not intentionally. But the thing is, now I don't get offended as easily as I did before, but the people around me, I think they're very sensitive. Even things that I didn't think they'd get offended, they took offense anyway. So I find it very hard to keep up with people's feelings. It's like I have to watch every little thing that I do or say around them, in case they don't like it and get offended by it. So difficult man..

I know that I'm not perfect, in fact, I'm still too far from perfect. There's a lot of things I need to work on improving. I need to learn to be humble coz I'm very very proud, I need to learn to have a servant's heart coz, really, I always think about my own needs first then other people's. I'm still very natural but God will work on me. I'm like gold in the fire, God will refine me and strip me off my pride and selfishness. But this is a process, it cannot happen in one day. I get confused in a lot of things. And these people around me always get angry at the slightest things that's not worth being angry about. I feel upset when people get angry with me coz there'll be a wall I need to break through to get to them. Sometimes I feel like I just don't care, if they don't want to talk to me so what? But still, it keeps bothering me.. and I can only give it to God.