this was the view from my kitchen window at midnight between tuesday and wednesday :) 

looks like the solar eclipse wasn't the worst this week... or its effect hasn't worn off yet...

the day started with wiping the water off the kitchen walls, because of the faulty faucet. luckily, it only loosened, so no permanent damage  and luckily there was a wrench in my apartment...

next, i thought i'd make something for breakfast. and since eggs were the only thing that could be cooked i decided to make an omelette... and the eggs turned out rotten  i thought that i was probably destined to keep a diet today. but i still had some salad...

and when i took the bowl to put the salad there, it just slipped out of my hand and shattered 

clearly, not my day...

yesterday i read a story on an online news resource about a man, who died under the wheels of a subway train. no one knows why that happened - whether he jumped, or was pushed, or fainted or whatever reason it could be for him to fall down. so many witnesses (considering how overcrowded Kiev subway is at 8 pm on a working day) and yet no one could tell what really happened.

however shocking this piece of news is (as always when the death is witnessed by many and therefore told and retold), it wasn't even close to how shocking the comments were to me and also that there were so many comments. i mean that it's always shocking and sad when someone's life end like this. but, no one really knows if it was suicide and yet everyone seemed to think that it's the only likely possibility. that's the first shocking thing. here i remembered the saying of my university professor David D'Andre (my friend Zena mentions him a lot :)) - "never assume, it'll make an ass of you and me". how true!

by assuming that this was a suicide people started making judgments. there were about a hundred comments, but more than a half of them were like "stupid idiot, it took me an hour to get to the central station because of him, where normally it takes 20 minutes. why couldn't he just hang himself somewhere quiet? less trouble for other people…" honestly, about 60 comments I read were like this. how sick are these people?

this really isn't a top story. sadly, this isn't the first, and more sadly - not the last case like this. people commit suicide, and if you can't help at least do not judge. thousands of people die every day, some of them quietly, some tragically, but why make such a story of it? we do not know all of them, and we don't even know about most deaths. why this one grabbed so much interest? because it happened in Kiev and made a lot of people spend some uncomfortable minutes in a subway? are we like soulless robots who are programmed only to think how to get up at 6 am, get to work by 9, work till 6 pm, get home at 7, eat, watch news and stupid soap operas and go to bed at 11? and if anything goes off schedule we blame whatever or whoever caused the 10-minute delay? nothing interests people anymore, everything is planned, no spontaneity. if someone commits public suicide and causes inconvenience to others - darn him, right? no one stops to think that this man probably did not plan ahead to make this jump. this decision might have come to him on spot and he didn't pause to look back. he didn't necessarily plan to make others as inconvenient as possible. If he slipped on icy pavement, fell down and broke his leg, thus blocking this pavement and being unable to get up himself, would everyone just go to the other side of the street and blame him for making them cross the street in an oh-i-wanted-so-much-to-walk-this-side-of-the-street-and-now-i-have-to-cross way??

i know that 100 comments are not enough to say that the whole 3-million people in this city are not right in their minds… but still, it's understandable to have 2-3 such comments… but a hundred??

anyway… this blog post came out rather gloomy, though i didn't expect it to be that way. actually, i didn't expect it to be any way, i just wrote what I think.

on a happier note, i was allowed to take an extra lunch hour tomorrow to go sign the contract with the internet provider. yay! obviously, friday is going to be quiet at work and that is always good news. so, i'll get high-speed internet somewhere next week. so long, dial-up!