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Tuesday, December 23, 2003

hello.... i am back to writing here... i dont really know what to say... tis the holiday season... and i dont like the holiday season... and i am just left with the overall feeling of loneliness and resentment...um... maybe it is because the holidays are supposed to be about loving and caring and....and... i dont really have that...i wish that maybe i had someone to spend the holidays with... but i never ave and dont believe i ever will... so i think i shall just go on not caring... proceed as if it were just another day.... but the new year is approaching as well that is ok... i dont mind the new year... it just proves i lived one year longer then i thought i would...

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Sunday, December 14, 2003

	emotions are not in my favor... so i express them through... um... song
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Malchik gay
Malchik gay, malchik gay
Malchik gay
Malchik gay, malchik gay
Malchik gay
Malchik gay

Handsome
Tender
Soft
Why do you look right through me
thinking
"No"
I can't deny my feelings
Growing strong
I try to keep believing
dreaming on
And every time I see you
I crave more
I wanna pull you closer
closer
closer
closer
but you leave me feeling frozen

Malchik gay
Malchik gay
I can be
all you need
Won't you please
stay with me
Malchik gay
Malchik gay
Apologies, might-have-been's
Malchik gay
Malchik gay
can't erase what I feel
Malchik gay, gay
Malchik gay

Malchik gay

Choking
Back emotion
I try to keep on hoping
for a way;
a reason for us both to
come in
close
I long for you to hold me
like your boyfriend does
and though my dream is
slowly fading
I wanna be the object
object
object
object
of your passion but it's hopeless

Malchik gay, malchik gay, malchik gay
Malchik, malchick

[Mal'chik Gey]

Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey
Mal'chik, Mal'chik, Mal'chik, Mal'chik Gey
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik
Mal'chik, Mal'chik, Mal'chik

Smotrish nezhno,
Zhdyosh ego vniman'ya.
Chuvstva te zhe,
No, ne ponimayu
Skol'ko mozhno
Zhit', lyubya, ukradkoi.
Ochen' slozhno
Skryt' tvoi povadki,
Ochen' trudno
Skryt' moi stradan'ya.
Ochen', ochen', ochen' ochen'
Neprilichnoe zhelan'e.

Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey
Bud' so mnoi ponaglei.
Ot styda ne krasnei,
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey
Polozhi na druzei,
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey.
Ot menya , ****
Mal'chik Gey Gey'

Slyozy dushat',
Mysli zhit' meshayut.
Trudno slushat'.
Net, ne ponimayu.
Da, ya znayu vse tvoi sekrety.
Kak ty terpish tvyordye pridmety?
Vse zhe znayu, eto beznadyozhno,
No mechtayu, tayu'tayu'tayu'tayu'tayu'tayu...

Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey
Bud' so mnoi ponaglei.
Ot styda ne krasnei,
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey
Polozhi na druzei,
Mal'chik Gey, Mal'chik Gey.
Ot menya , ****
Mal'chik Gey Gey'

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Friday, December 12, 2003

i am tired... for once.... yes.... maybe i will try to sleep... or at least rest...

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Thursday, December 11, 2003

	i am in an ok mood i guess.... listening to music... yep yep....
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