So, I don't know how many of you actually read this any more, but I want to put this up here, I put it on my blog first,then myspace for the ppl who don't read my blog, and now here for those who don't read either of them, but just read it, and tell me what you think, I spilled my heart.
After the boys of summer have gone.
The ATARIS=awesome!
Take a look at these 2 songs..they like totally describe me and me friends…
“Up, Up, Down, Down, Left, Right, Left, Right, B, A, Start”
today was a good day.
I didn’t even have to use my a.k.
at least I didn’t get my heart broken anyway
wasting time in east new jersey.
guess I could tell you ’bout
the snow covered rooftops,
sunsets, shooting stars and picturesque backdrops.
or how I went and hung out at quick-stop
and pretended that I was in clerks.
sometimes you gotta stop and remember
that your not gonna live forever.
be young, think smart, stay true
and just follow your heart.
remember the times we watched “karate kid”
and memorized every line
skipped school and went to the arcade
hung out and played galaga all day.
stole a car and we drove to michigan.
600 miles with no destination.
except to get in the car and drive
and see where we’ll end up.
sometimes you gotta stop and remember.
that your not gonna be young forever.
think smart, have fun, stay true
and don’t ever grow up.
out of all I’ve learned in life
you always keep your friends close to your heart.
’cause who will help you if you’re falling down.
and everything is o.k.
I totally <3 that song and this one too
“In This Diary”
Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
And that unspoken feeling of knowing
Right now is all that matters
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80’s songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it…
Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you’ll finally get it right.
Breaking into hotel swimming pools,
and wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top’s singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 Riverside, it’s time to say, “goodbye.”
Get on the bus, it’s time to go.
Being grown up isn’t half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart,
and eventually you’ll finally get it right.
So I was just going to bold the parts that are most like me, then I realized, that all of both songs is totally Katie worthy of being bolded.
As I sit here eating this icky yucky tuna sandwich((why are you eating it if it icky yucky)) [cuz it is good for me..duh!] I am thinking about how today’s service in church like totally described what I just basically went through, well not so much really that as it, well I’m not sure. I just pulled myself away from the wrong people. The people that screwed up my life for half a year, six months of my life are wasted, but I don’ t like to think of them as totally wasted. It was an eye opener for me. I realized that((with the help of Pastor Mathna’s sermon))you do need to find the ‘wrong’ people so that you know who is wrong for future reference,and I have done that. I also realized that you don’t have to do everything that they make you do. They can’t make you do anything you don’t want to. When I was hanging out with those who can remain nameless for I have already stated their names many a time on here and while talking to you all that you know who I am talking about, I did things that I shouldn’t have done, and didn’t do things that I should have been doing, and I paid the dues. I lost friends who I cared deeply about, I lost the trust of my family, but mostly, I disapointed so many people who knew and still know that I am better than that, that I am not a loser and that I can make better decisions than those that I made.
I am very proud of myself to say to those people that they are bad for me and that I am done with them. I am proud that I stood up for myself for the first time and didn’t go back on my words, but with every win there is a loss. Still, a lot of my old friends still want nothing to do with me. They think that I will turn around and do it again, this is hard. It makes me feel like I didn’t do anything, that I could just go back to the people and do the things that I did before and totally ditch everything that I have started since then, but I am not. I am not giving up on the people that do believe in me, and most of all, I am not going to disapoint them once again. I am going forward, there is no longer a rewind button on me anymore. I am in fast forward, slowing down and preparing for the important things, not letting myself slip up again. I am going to succeed.
Once again, I have lyrics for you to read.
Candy-Seventh Day Slumber
So many nights wasted,
poisoning myself
Guess I just hated,
the emptiness I felt
To be excepted
you gotta look like they do
But you held your hand down
and took me just as I am
Your love’s like candy
oh like something
I’ve never tasted before
And you take me places
I never dreamed I could go
Oh I’ve been laughed at
and broken in two
And I’ve felt the wrath that
words of hate can do
Oh I’ve been stranded
and left standing in the rain
But you picked my head up
and carried me
away from this place
Your love’s like candy
like something
I’ve never tasted before
And you take me places
I never dreamed I could go
and where would I be
without you
where would I go
without you
That so totally deserved to be all bolded.
The first time I heard that, I cried, because it was me in nutshell.
Thank you, Wendy and Lindsay,Tammy, Greg,Nan & Pappy,Dad,Mom, James and everyone else who I may have talked to for advice or anything, for always believing in me and not giving up on me.
You are always there for me, and now I will always be here for you.
So this is where I leave you all,
Loves and God bless,
K-tizzleX3
