so...how are all my loved ones?? missing me terribly, i hardly think i have the right to hope.  I think of all my friends and the memories we've shared...I sometimes think i want to go back to that point in my life where everything was a given, you never had to worry about money, or what's going to happen tomorrow.  The most i ever had to worry about was which of my friends was mad at me over some guy i didnt like in the first place.  How i miss those fights, they seem so trivial compared to what i face today.   I long for the time that i had people to depend on, for the time i spent just hanging out and loving the people i was with.  As i get closer to this stage in my life i find myself wondering about the choices i've made.  Was it right to come here? Only the Lord knows and i pray he's leading me somewhere.  While i miss those old friends of mine and the memories of sitting on a road staring at the sky (you know who you are) And i think of the endless conversations about boys and makeup adn wanting so bad to grow up, I am confident that those who are true will always stay true.  If you are my true friend, then you will always have a place in my heart, and when i call you out of nowhere, we will talk as if we were together the day before.  When we finally get together again it will be as if nothing has changed.  I miss you all, those of you who had my cell number, i still have it, mommy mailed me my phone! how sweet of her. Give me a call.  I miss having people to talk to! if you dont have my cell and want to talk to me-tell me and i'll give it to you!...sorrie it took so long to update-lots of crap going on in my life right now. 

xoxo-always

Tiny

well amanda- if we arent hardly friends when i move then its our own fault.  because if distance is all it takes to break up our friendship then its obviously not that strong.  if i really am your best friend, and you know u are mine...then it shouldnt matter where either of us is.  but if you want to think we wont be friends anymore then ok i guess.  Thank you for my birthday presents.  you didnt have to get me anything...but i'm glad that at least one of my friends remembered it was my birthday.  if you dont think we are hardly going to be friends anymore then how are you going to help me plan my wedding? and be my maid of honor?? you are and always will be my best friend.  i wont find another best friend when i move to texas.  i know your hurt becuase i am moving, if i could i would take you with me...and billy too if you wanted...but i cant.  the only thing i can do is try to make my life better so i can be here better for my friends when they need me. I'm not going to get anywhere by living with my mother adn raising her 2 year old.  I'm coming back...not to lake village but somewhere close...you know you wont be here very far past college.  you'll leave eventually too.  i understnd you'll be busy with the baby and everything and we wont write or call very much.  but if we are best friends like you keep insisting we are then it wont matter. when we are together again it will be the same as it is now.  you are my best friend in the world and i refuse to let you stop being friends with me just because i am in a different state.  it'll be ok.  promise you'll try to keep in touch? and if u let nicole take my place i'll kill her.  anyways...my birthday pretty much was boring...but i'm 18 now so its all good.  none of my friends callled me or emailed me or anything! amanda did...adn anthony did...but thats it...pretty sure that's sorry.  Glad to know i'm leaving behind such wonderful friends. pft. anyhootie.  about a week until i leave..not that anyone cares but i thought i'd put it out there anyways....well i'm outie...~tiny