i am usually the type of person who always keeps busy -- even if there isn't anything to do i always find something to do. however, lately i have been feeling super busy. it seems like everything is so fast paced -- there have been many times where i just wanted to push a pause button. i love my parents. they work so hard everyday to provide the best for our family. so this is the time of year when they are really really busy with work and bc of their busy schedule i have taken up the role as a superdaughter LOL. it's been a little hard but i have been managing.

right after school, i pick up my little brother from school and on the days i work (mon, wed, and friday) i take him to work with me and he goes into the 2nd grade class while i work with my first graders. and the other two days of the week (for now) i take him to orchestra rehearsel with me. at home, on top of everything (from working on his school work and the extra work i have created for him) i have my homework and the things i need to do. [[its actually not as bad as it may sound -- sometimes i just wish i had more time for things lol.]]

my little brother isn't the brightest. he's pretty a.d.d at times and is really behind in his reading and just language arts in general. before, i really didn't really help him with his school work or help him improve. i always complained that he needed to read more and someone needed to really help him improve but i myself never really did much. however, recently (with my parents not around) i really have gotten the chance of helping my little brother out. at first, not to lie, i was really hard on him but i after these past few days i have really learned how to work with my little brother and my patience with him has grown alot. i do alot of extra stuff with him (excluding his hw) and i really do see a slight improvement and its really rewarding. my relationship with my little brother has always been pretty good but i feel like all the time i am spending with him right now is making our bond even stronger.

not to mention my little sister has been a tremendous help around the house. she has food ready for me and my little brother when we come home and she takes all the crap i send her way when i get stressed or have my little fits of anger. even though we still do argue from time to time, i think everything that we go through together continues to bring us closer as sisters. she has also actually recently accepted Christ as her Savior. HALLELUJAH ;]

so although everything does seem to be going at a very fast pace right now, i am thankful that things are still holding up and i am glad there are positive outcomes of the situation. i really do believe in the midst of everything God is teaching me many things and i really do believe that without His help i'd prolly be in a different situation.

also, childcare and work have really been my outlets! my passion for teaching children has really been growing. its great! i am really glad i took childcare this year..it has given me so many different opportunities to work with children. so basically in this class - we get to go to different elementary school sites where we go into school classrooms and basically act as an assistant teacher. 

work has been equally good. i have so many different stories..but i think i will save them for next time ;]. but in end its just so rewarding to me when i do see children change -- its an even greater reward when you know that you are an influence that is helping them change (in a good and positive way ofcourse) things with school and friends are okay but nowadays it really does feel like when i am with my kids at work or at my field site - i am sincerely happy, enjoying myself, and worry-free.

although there are times i just want to pout and complain about many things i try to keep in mind that everything is not about me. i try to keep in mind that we are to not serve ourselves but to serve others.

"Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen." - 1 Peter 4:9-11

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