k sooo I'm hoping ppl stopped reading this by now... but yeah! I blocked T.J. and Steve soo don't tell them I'm writing in here! cuz Steve can't keep a secret! but yeah.... I was reading the discription of being "blocked" and I'm not all that positive that they "can't" read this... soo yeah... well yeah... Heather tried to hook me up with this guy Scott... I technicly havn't met him yet cuz he wasn't in school and won't be till Monday... suspensions suck like that... but yeah... we talked on the fone last night from like 10 30 till like 2 am! it was insane!!! and you all know me! I hate the fone! now this convo was a real convo I'm talking laughing every other minute... puns all around... and might I say alot of British Penguins!!! haha! but yeah... Heather said he likes me... I kinda sorta like him too... but I'm happy with T.J. soo yeah! he's a really great guy though... he invited me to this "cook out" type thing this weekend... just like him and his friends hangen round making some makeshift food! haha... but yeah... he's awsome... and I was really sad last night... just in a "leave me the fuck alone" kinda mood... but the second he IMed me I knew my night was gunna go better! haha here's the beginning of our convo (not saved... from memory) :
Him- would you be freaked out if Penguins could fly?
Me- no I think that would be awsome!
Him-what if they could speak?
Him- or if they stopped waddeling?
Me- well if they could speak that would just be freaken awsome but if they stopped waddeling it would just ruin their good name as Penguins!
Him- I like the way you think!
Me- well now that you like the way I think can you tell me who you are?
: it was hilarious! he's in my lunch... Heather's gunna point him out on Monday when he comes back... but I might see him before that... he said he might drop by my tornament on Saturday (Karate thing) and Sunday is his friends and his cook out thinger soo I might see him then! I'm going to KOP tomorrow wit T.J. Moogz Aleks and possiblly my Turkey! hehe... (AKA Sarah Stoner) soo yeah... I have to go get ready for Karate! I get my blue belt tonight! WITH HONORS! I'm soo happy bout that! soo yeah...
If you knew me before....
....you won't know me now
Meggz | 
duh! who didn't see that! lol... we went to the mall last night.. it was fun... we were supposed to go see a movie today round noon but his Mom wants him to clean the house or sumptin... but yeah... going to Carolynn and Cara's B'Day later! T.J. might come to that... I dunno... I can't wait for the party! hehe I got them some cool stuff! well yeah... bye!
... my fault... my idea... my fucked up theory on love and happiness... the basic break down of my makeshift "theory" is that if you don't allow urself to be happy then it can never be tourn apart... soo yeah... that's just the basic... I don't feel like getting into detail... but yeah... I 'dumped' him... Monday... it's now Wednesday... still down... yeah... life sux.. he asked me back on Monday afternoon... I said no.. I shoulda and wanted to say yes... but I can't.... I just can't... soo yeah... he sent me the lyrics to "Perfect World" by Simple Plan... and yeah.. I've been listening to that song on repeat since... I miss him desperately... but I'm gunna try to move on... I just wanna be friends with him... maybe I could ask out Mike Kahn again... he was a good boyfriend (contrary to my friends beliefs!) they hate/hated him for good reasons... but I could never stay mad at him... but yeah... I dunno... I don't wanna be able to say that I'm "rebounding" but I think I am... I just need something to take my mind off of T.J..... and I don't want to piss/depress him while doing it... but I don't think him and I will be together again.... and eventually one of us will have to have a boy/girlfriend... soo I've decided that I either need to get one quick or just not date ne one for a long time... 