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Re-blogging

I have resumed my blogging life - on my own website anyway. I wonder why I always become a 'blogger' when I turn single. I guess it's a fact of my life that I am better in expressing myself when I am lonely, when I am depressed. The world always seem a little more interesting that way. My life becomes more interesting too, I guess.

Anyway, I always direct everyone to my http://www.janicekychan.com site - not that I don't like xanga - it is actually way more convenient to update here than my website (especially since now I don't have my own computer and I don't have my ftp and web files ...) but I like to keep my personal site updated. because it is MINE. hahahaa. ok that's dorky.

i think some sort of depression is hitting me.

the 'you do not belong here anymore' depression.

and i'm already getting some sense of that - changes are happening at work without my knowing, yet thrown right at my face after the change has been made. yet, it was me who initiated the whole process - so why is it changing without me?

because i am leaving in 2 days.

i am more than happy to be leaving at this moment. but at the same time - i probably will never return to this company for reasons beyond my control. how depressing is life.

current lunch favorite: smoked turkey with spicy mustard, onions, leaf lettuce, hot jalapeno peppers, mozzarella cheese wrapped in a sundried tomato wrap.

oh you can't believe how good that is - and the dangerous thing is, it feels healthy, but i don't really think it is! but then it's probably better than eating buffalo chicken wings for lunch. :p

counting down: 8 days to puerto rico!

counting down: 7 days till i see teddy!

counting down: 5 days till the end of my internship!

*counting down with single digits is the best ... *

counting down: 10 days to puerto rico! :D