So, I'm not in the mood for much at the moment. I'm just sitting on my bed in the dark. My head is banging, I seem to be cramping a little bit, and im craving two things: him && some really hot black coffee. Of course i rather have my everything over coffee though.
I really do dislike it very much here(this city..house..etc). I miss Spring Valley so much, I miss being able to be with my babie all the time, I miss my big room, my wonderful window(hehe,babe;]),etc. I really wish I could go back, seriously no one has a clue about how much I want to go back.
On another note;; It's been 8 months and 12 days now with thee love of my life. I wouldn't give that time up for anything, and the good thing is, I know I won't have to. Our love is strong and we mean the world to each other. He's given me the best time of my life just by being part of it. He's taught me so much,and shown me true love, trust, fidelity, etc. do exist and I thank him for that and for so much more.
Uggh;; had some argument type thing with my father. Sometimes he can seem or be so understanding then at other times he can be such an ass. Parents truly will never understand their kids, but we as kids never will understand our parents until we, ourselves are welcomed into the path of parenthood either.I honestly can't wait until I'm out of the house. Yes, that does seem like forever. The only way i'll be out of this house any sooner is if I get kicked out, otherwise i'm stuck until I'm 18 or out of HS, and even then I don't know what will happen.
Now it comes to mind that I wish I was at the beach right now. Sitting on a fluffy warm blanket, overlooking into the sea, feeling the cool breeze brush upon me, and all of this while being in his arms. It's so nice to want isn't it? But hey, it doesn't do me any harm to wish,want,dream..
And now, I'm thinking I really want a job. It would give me some sort of liberty and time away from home. It has to be in SV though so I can be with my babie more. Hm, and I should sometime go to the DMV to get my damn permit. I STILL HAVENT GONE!
Man, oh man!I'm tired..why?I dont know. I think I'll go shower right about now..okay. I'll be back...whenever I decide to.
<3Jocelyn S.
p.s. i love my man.
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