Hey Eveyone,
 Last night was ok, but it got better only 'cuz I was able to talk to Brad. I'm really enjoying getting to know him. He seems to be an allaround great guy.I'm excited to see him on Thursday at Shack and I also am glad that he wants to see me at the Sweethearts game at Potterville on Friday. Since I'm grounded from the dance I'm gunna wear my outfit intended for the dance to the basketball game.( So Brad, I hope you like it).
~Carm~

Hey,
Last night was soo much fun !! Thank You all for inviting me and making me feel welcome. You don't know how much I appreciate it.
So for anyone that is wondering : I got some guts and told him that I liked him, So I guess you can be proud of me !! I never would have done that just a few weeks ago.
I just hope that everything works out so there might be a possiblility of this becoming an "us" thing.

Hey,
How is everything goin?  You all know what's going on in my life with my the pictures and Brian coming to Sweethearts.I hope he can come especially since we have done everyother major point in my life and I want him to be part of this too. He would never do / say anything to hurt me . He would never want to see me cry . He even felt bad when he heard about Nate. He promised me that he would never do anything like that especially after everthing my family would have had to go through to get the best medical care for my friend. I would do anything to help Brian if something were to happen to him. I would sit next to his bed just like I did for Nate, except that he would appreciate it, and I would even sleep at the hospital if he asked me to. Being there for him is important for me. I like Brian very much and I wouldn't ever want to loose him, even if my dad says that I cant talk to him.I don't know if my dad understands that I have grown very close to Brian and I will never let him go.Unless I decide that I should. He gave his x- girlfriend  a promise ring and she gave it back to him. I would like to get a ring from Brian. I think that he cares for me more than my parents understand. We have a connection that has grown very strong through the years. We have grown up together so we already know soo much about each other . It's kinda like we can skip part of the dating process where you get to know the person. Cuz we've already done that through the years.He says that the only reason he broke up with me in the first place was because my Aunt and Uncle and/ or his parents were giving him a hard time about dating me . And he didn't want to feel pressured to have to do anything that he didn't watn to and my aunt was already planning the wedding. Which kinda scared him. He says he's sorry that he ignored me when we were younger when he used to play his video games all the time and never respond to anyone , including his parents . He wa sjsut trying to escape his life and go into a dream world. And now that we're older we can appreciate each other's company more. We both want to have / find a serious relationship that might have a possibility of becoming more than just dating.I think we both want this relationship to become more.
~Carmel~

Hey Y'all !! Today has been an odd day . Like people lying to me and stabbing me in the back with my own words. I hate all of this High School BULL!!!  I can't wait until I graduate because then I don't have to deal with all of the Teenage Girl problems. Girls are horrible when it comes to getting even with each other and keeping the hateful feelings forever . And now all my new classes, HOLY COW !! I have a freshman class which is full of  immature horny freshman. And then I have Elliott in two of my classes . But now I haven't  talked to Kris since Friday morning . And now he doesn't answer the phone , since he is never around his phone and working all the time.

Hey everyone ,

Since you all know that my life is full of chaos it's no new news that I feel like my life is falling apart . Everything I do is always wrong even after I make dinner my mom acuses me of being selfish. Hello , if I was being selfish I wouldn't be taking time from my studying to make homeade pizza and take care of both my parents. I am about ready to go CRAZY!! And now I'm starting a class with a bunch of FRESHMAN of all things. My Gosh!! Why is  everything going down the tubes? I am happy though cuz i finally got ahold of Kris today and he told me that he wasn't mad at me. I hope he still will take me to sweethearts so you all can meet him. I'm getting over nate , but not the fact that he's dating HER!! But now I have something else to consume my time unless my dad scares him away.He is a really nice guy and he's fun to hang with and be around. He makes my laugh and not many people can do that !

Well talk to ya later

Carmel