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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 14:48:38 GMT

So it turns out that everyone's been ditching good ol' xanga here for myspace. I hate to be part of a crowd but...

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:28:52 GMT

So I don't ever get to update my Xanga anymore since I don't have the internet... Here's what's been going on:

I've been trying to take some more random road trips. Jen and I went to Emporia on Friday to see some of her friends. It was so much fun! I had my game on, lemme tell ya. I made some new Army friends... (wink-wink).

Things with "that guy" are officially over. He said some really mean things to me last night and we are DONE. Nobody should ever be that mean. He made me cry at work.

I have mixed feelings about school this semester. Yes, to me, school is a comfort zone and I'm afraid of the "real world," but at the same time, I have a feeling that this semester will be like any other semester I've attended at WSU. I will do well in a few classes, and then I will completely fail a few more and feel like a worthless idiot who is wasting my parents' money.

Well anyway, you get the jist of it. Oh by the way, I'm in the 24 hr study center at the library, and it smells like the Beta house. I'm going to miss that place.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 23:23:53 GMT

So New Year's Eve was a BLAST!!! Thanks to Stacy for inviting me to visit good ol' Brad Dillard in Lawrence. Tim Cunningham is the coolest guy I've ever met, seriously, he is sooo nice. Anyway, hope everyone had a great time partying. I know I did!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 03:34:00 GMT

I think I've really fucked things up this time... Why can't I learn to keep my mouth shut?

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 05:49:49 GMT

deja vu... im drunk at the beta house and updating my xanga! woo-hoo!

Monday, December 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 00:51:39 GMT

So when do I ever write an entry that doesn't complain about guys... Things with W are not good but not bad either. Every day I want to smile and cry at the same time. I'm so confused about my situation with him. One day he'll be like "I really like you, I like what we have" and the next he'll say something hurtful and stupid like "I'm a cheater." God I just can't even talk to him sometimes. Why am I putting up with this? He's not even my boyfriend... Anyway, more to complain about. I was not a good girl yesterday. I was so hurt that W blew off our date (again) that I invited Kyle over and we watched "War of the Worlds." I don't know if I should regret what I did or not (no we didn't have sex). I just needed attention. God I'm so emotionally high maintenance that I even piss of myself. No wonder I don't have a boyfriend.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 08:39:24 GMT

Pullin all-nighters is fun. Except when you're in the 24 hr study room at the library. Then it's just kind of lonely and boring. Yay for finals, right...

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 07:15:41 GMT

I'm at the beta house and im drunk and its fun... :)

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 20:19:16 GMT

Ok so I lied and I'm updating now. I don't know what my deal is with *you-know-who* (Stacy & Jen know). He says that we're dating, but at the same time it's "casual" because he doesn't know what he wants and he's too cautious because he sees all the other relationships around him failing and he doesn't want that to happen to him, which is apparently why he hasn't had a girlfriend in more than too years. Because he doesn't want one. I don't get it. I told him why I want to be in a relationship, and he was like "Hon, we all get lonely. I get lonely. I miss caring about someone too and having someone care about me, but it's just not worth it." I wanted to cry. Anyway, I've got a lot of studying to do for my Macro test tomorrow and a paper to write for my Linguistics class. Catchya.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 00:07:05 GMT

Ok well I'm moved out of my house and into my apartment. I don't have Internet service there, so I probably won't be updating anymore (not like anyone reads mine anyway...). Ya'll know my number, okay!