| | Sweet MemoriesI was just looking back on some old journals today and reminiscing a bit. Its helpful to know where I've come from and to go over some of my life goals. I think I've come a long way in fulfilling my life goals, particularly in career and spiritual areas. I look back at my journal, over four years ago and I think about the confused young man I was, and just how unclear and uncertain I was with my community and in myself. It really amazes me just how far God has brought me, and the person I am today. I am a bit more self-confident, and hopefully more self-assured. I just realize that I get sleep at night a lot easier than I did. But that's a credit to God and his work in my life I feel. I think God wants me to rest in the strength of character and integrity he has built in me and be a bit more assured of the person I am.
I guess the funniest moment in looking through my journals is this letter I wrote to my future wife back in 2002 (I'm still waiting to figure out who this woman is). I wrote it prompted by my therapist as a way of trying to cope with being depressingly single (which I still am...hehe). The funny thing about is that I haven't ever written a letter like that since. I think one simple letter, which I express a lot of my heart is a precious thing, and it can't just be given away on a whim. So it has stayed in my journal all these years. I don't take a look at it very often, heck I don't remember the last time I took at it. But I know it is there, waiting for someone special to give it to. It works as a check, because there just haven't been women who I think I'd give that letter to. When I read the letter it feels a bit silly now, but it also speaks so much to where my heart is. I just want someone who I can share that part of my heart with. I'm not asking for applications now, but I think it is a bit reassuring to me that I have some standards and rubrics for that letter. That's a good thing I think. I really will be happy if I ever give that letter away. It is a bit funny at how much joy I have when I do look at that letter every now and then. And I begin to wonder if I was really all that crazy and confused back then. At least I got this one thing right. |
| | Posted 9/12/2006 12:53 AM - 0 comments
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