we all fall down.have you ever had that friend that meant a lot to you but didn't want to open up to you? that friend that is always there for you to make things better but when something is wrong with them they don't want to talk about it or get mad at you for asking? and even though you tell them that you're here to just listen and that they mean so much to you still does absolutely nothing? i don't know. to me, that is a huge let down but what can you do if they won't take in any advice that you give them? it's really hard caring for a person so incredibly much and not getting that back in return. being home has been really weird. i can't wait to go back to chico. i consider that my home more that the home i've lived in for 18 years. i haven't been able to sleep for like a week and it's really starting to frustrate me. i get to sleep at like 2 or 3 am and i know i never have plans for the next day, but it's just frustrating. i guess that's where prayer comes in. God is so amazing. the things that he does for his loved ones. i love God's little suprises. like the sunrise beautiful leaves pretty flowers every day God continues to fill me up with his love. ever feel like you're not giving God that same love back? i feel like that all the time. but the truth is, he just wants you in his arms he wants to know that he's your best friend he just wants you to seek his face spend time with him having fun with him he wants to hear you say i love you that's all he wants. is that too much to ask? so often, we think that God wants so much more than that. but it's not true. yes, he calls us to do our best and to try our hardest, but he also just really wants that relationship with us. we all slip up. we all make mistakes. but when we do, God wants us to run back to him for comfort. he's our untimate comforter. he can give us the comfort that. the comfort that no one else can give. wow. i'm getting good revelation. just love the Lord. | 
