If you were to get 1,000 dollors every time you shared your faith, would you do it more often? 

I had the worstest dream last night!! I think Satan is haunting my dreams, at least the one last night. I've never had a dream so real and so horribly demonic. Strange...

My lifes been changed up, rearranged up=)

I'd rather die like Christ than live unholy!

I've been ashamed of the gospel for too long!!! No more.

I wanna see more of Him
Cause I'm sick of more of me
He opened the eyes of my blind heart and led me to true worship
Gotta a peek at His beauty as He opened the crack
That captivated my nature and kept me coming back
He gave me taste buds to taste the freedom of love
And to delight in His loving kindness through Jesus' blood
And every since repentance I been on this chase
To drink from this freedom fountain through His infinite grace
Namely seeking His face
Cause He removed the veil
Knocked me off my high horse and removed the scales
Now I've been exposed to His glorious light
That shines into the darkness in my heart and I'm like...

I wanna see more of Him
Cause I'm sick of more of me

Listen...
Though I'm a Christian my vision sometimes gets blurred
When I'm resisting His visits and not reading His Word
Desperate need to be purged
Easy to lose the wonder
Through these daily distractions banging louder than thunder
When I devalue my Savior and start treasuring trash
And longing for mud patches thinking it's greener grass
Exchanging eternal pleasures for the ones that's going to pass
Looking for them to satisfy but they lie never last
When captivated and activated by my deceitful lust
It's a lack of faith in my Father's grace and I need to place my trust
In everything that my Father is and everything that He supplied
Through the perfect life of His Son
Death and resurrection of Christ
And I know I got to trust Him
All this sin I got to trust Him
The world that we in I got to trust Him
How I'm going to live if I just brush Him
Knowing that my heart is mad disgusting
Knowing that the Father had to crush it
Yes just so we can be free
Please give me eyes to see
I wanna see more of Him

Lord
See I'm reminded in my mind of my brother Zacchaeus
Who took some desperate measures just so that He could see Jesus
As joy accompanied the faith that He felt in his soul
That made me question myself, how far am I willing to go?
What am I willing to get rid of so I can get close?
And closer and closer Lord, fill me with Your Holy Ghost
Pour out Your Spirit empower me in increasing measures
To see Your uniqueness instead of these fleeting pleasures
Give me greater capacities to suffer and to carry
This cross on my back as I walk to my personal Calvary
And climb on the cross oh Lord as I stretch out my arms
Quoting the Psalms as they banging them nails in my palms
Until I die cause I was crucified with my Savior
And resurrected now I can reflect it in my behavior
A new nature to taste and savor Jesus the Christ
Who brought me out of the darkness into His marvelous light

I wanna see more of Him

                     -FLAME

Its so amazing to see how God restores!! I have never been so aware that sin is crouching at the door of my heart and waiting for me to give in just a little bit so that it can take control and put me in chains that seperate from Christ. I've been realizing that I have to take desperate measures to not let sin and selfishness rule instead of the Holy Spirit, I cannot believe how much freedom He brings when I put Him above everything else, there is nothing else like it!! I want to get closer and closer to Him, theres so many things that He's bringing into the light that have kept me from Him, all the other loves that pull my heart away from Him. I want to live every moment in the remembrance of the cross and what He did for me and that I can live in victory because of the resurrection. Thank Jesus that He redeems those that turn away!!!! I forget that the Holy Spirit has got soul power. 

Got a wake up call last night! I was searching Godtube and found Blair Wingo and the Passion For Christ Movement. Go to www.p4cm.com and check it out.

I was so convicted! For about the last six months I've been living with alot of sin in my heart and I've let Satan get a stronghold but on the outside I look okay. I've been saying I want God to change me but haven't been taking the time to really seek Him. Bible study and prayer have stopped except for rare occasions and I've gone to church not wanting to be there and feeling like a hypocrite because every sunday would be the same, I'd repent and ask God to forgive me but nothing would change my actions the rest of the week. Its been really dark; for when the 'light' inside you is darkness, how great is that darkness!! I lost all my passion for ministry and living. But God kinda shook me awake last night through Blair Wingo's poetry and His word which penetrates to the deepest part of me. He just kinda layed my heart open and made me see all the sin I've been living comfortably in. I've been making up alot of excuses not to be totally sold out for Christ. Wow, I don't even know why I'm posting all this but I just want to say that Jesus saves!!