my heart is hurting........

How would you feel if the person you love the most tell you that they are not inlove with you anymore? Sucks huh! I can't believe that someone who once tell me that she loves me and never leaves me is now telling me that she doesn't feel the same tway anymore. I don't know what is love anymore. I waited for someone like her for a very long time.But now everything is changing. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I am not good with relationship. Seems like every relationship I go to, I ending up getting hurt and push aside like an old toy.

When she told me that she was falling for me, I was scared to fall  her because I didn't know how to love and I was scared to get hurt. But she was so passionate with her feelings for me. No other girls were like that to me. I can trully say that she changed me. Because of her I got closer with my Mom, I treated my sister different, and because of her, my perspective in life had changed. She taught me not to give up in school and always have hope in everything I do. But now, where is that girl? Can someone tell me where she go. Everything changed. I don't want to fall in love anymore. Love sucks.

Angelie Mei (my niece)                            Toots  (my nephew)

MY LIFE BE LIKE OOOH AAAAH.... THANK GOD FOR NEVER LETTING ME GO.. U ARE SO AWESOME......................CHAHUU!!!!

summer just beginning for me and its not all that great so far. well its been fun but i gotto learn time management cuz im gettin so lazy now. ive been doing great now ever since my last entry.  GOD been so aweseome.. he been showing things to me and i am just overwhelmed.  i cant say that life is going to be perfect from now on but ill manage with GOD on my side.  three more weeks and we r leavin on the way to phil. as a mission trip.. im going to miss someone, but this is all for GOD cuz remember GOD first. ( im sure going to miss u but GOD is teaching us patience)  well i gettin lazy rite now so ima end it here. I'M OUT!!!! LATERZ.....

I DUNNO WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.............

       WHY DO I FEEL DIS WAY? GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!

SHOW ME OH GOD THE THINGS U WANT ME TO LEARN FRON THIS  EVEN THOUGH ITS GOING TO HURT ME. SO LONG I LEARN FROM IT.  I PRAY OH LORD GOD THAT U WILL GUIDE ME BACK TO THE RIGHT PATH SO I CAN JUST FOCUS ON U AND U ALONE.  AMEN

i have no idea y i feel dis way.  i just feel like givin up allready.  i am stressing out w/ skool and just issues.  i knoe that its just the work of the enemy why i feel this way.  but i must say that the enemy is doing a good job.  i feel like giving in cuz  its just too much for me to handle.  i knoe that GOD is in control and all i need to do is give it all to him.  ish just that ive been having hard time to give it all to him and just trust him that everything is going to be okay. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME U GUYS, I MEAN REALLY PRAY FOR ME.  i cannot pretend that everything is okay anymore.  for those of u who talking crap behind my back for some reason. i dunno whats ur intention but if ur intention is to hurt me, then i must say that u  succeded in that.  i dunno y people gotto say so many things about me and mizely.  if u guys dont like her for me, then there is nothing i can do about it b-cuz i like her and she likes me.  if u guys have something to say then just tell me  straight up.  dont make up stories and dont make up so much BS please.  i like to thank the people whos concern about me.  please feel free to talk to me because im pretty sure u will help out a lot even though u think im going to get mad.  please correct me if u guys see something wrong that i am doing.

  oh and we are not going out for some of u were asking( not yet at least).  we are just giving it all to GOD if its his will or not. if it is not GOD's will for us to be together then there is nothing we can do about it  even though its gonna be hard for us.  i knoe that we were kinah fast and im sorry if we offended anyone.....right now, we are just taking it slow and just being the best of  frens..well more that frens... i guess i can say that we are seeing each other ( nothing more nothing less).. but yea i said what i think i needed to say . dis might not be right to some of u so im sorry  but i just feel like i needed to take it out rather than takin it all in and just exploded.

DAS ALL FOLKS!!!! PEACE!!!!

                                    EMAN AND MIZELY