i can't lie to myself. i know its over. i knew that you'd break my heart, please boy, i told ya .

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[ one ]
she started to isolate herself, because it hurts less than being pushed away.

[ two ]
there was no easy switch that she could flip to slow the flow of feelings, no way to drain memories that pooled like acid in her stomach because her heart no longer knew what to do with them.

[ three ]
there was a fine line between love & hate, you heard that cliche all the time. but no one told you that the moment you crossed it would be the one you least expected. you'd fall in love and crack open a secret door to let your soul mate in. you just never expected such closeness, one day, to feel like an intrusion.

four
i got two words for haters : best wishes .

five
she had learned the hard way that we are never the people we think we are. we are the ones we pretend, with all our hearts, we can't become.

six
i know you're not the emotional kind, but don't be afraid to tell me what's on your mind. i'll always be right here.

seven
the reason he'd broken up with her was, ironically, for her own good. he knew that if he asked her to drop everything and follow him across the earth, she'd do it ; if the roles were reversed, though, he wouldn't. they were at different places in the same relationship, and like anything that's out of alignment, they were destined to crash sooner or later. by taking care of it early -- gently, he liked to think -- he was only trying to keep her from getting her heart broken even harder.

eight
he'd liked her, but he hadn't really loved her. at least he didn't think he had. there were no B across his vision when he saw her across the room, & his general feeling when he was with her was one of comfort, not of blood boiling & fire & brimstone.

nine
but you can reason with yourself all day, and still have butterflies in your stomach.

[ ten ]
it wasn't what they had said to each other, but what they hadn't : that forgiving & forgetting were fused together -- flip sides of the same coin -- and they they couldn't both exist at the same time. choosing one meant that you sacraficed seeing the other. .

question : 
is summer boring you .. yet ?

for me :
naah. usually it does, but im pretty busy this summer (:

do you have any idea what you've done ? you took the only thing that beats in me .

okay, so from now on, the title of each entry would be lyrics to a favorite song at the momentt . 

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thanks for alllll the comments from the last post. im sorry i didnt reply them  but yeahh . 5 more schooldays til summer . (:

[ one ]
dreams, she thought, were like soap bubbles. you could look at them from a distance, and they were lovely. it's when you've stuck your face too close that your eyes wound up stinging.

two
a guy can't hurt you if you don't let him.

three
high school students were cannibals ; they fed off your broken heart while you watched & shrugged and offerred you a bloody, apologetic smile.

four
it hurt, though not as much as everything else.

[ five ]
these days, her entire life was about making people believe she was someone she wasn't anymore.

six
given anything negative or uncertain, there were rules that had to be followed.

seven
the problem was, you wouldn't have one without the other. there couldn't be a bad guy unless there was a good guy to create the standard. there couldn't be a good guy until a bad guy showed just how far off the path he might stray.

[ eight ]
she wondered if he had the same dreams she did, the kind where you wake up with all your breath gone and your heart flat as a dime.

[ nine ]
sometimes, ridiculously, the more perfect he was the angrier she got, as if his generosity existed only to highlight her own selfishness.

[ ten ]
i like the word evil. scramble it a little, and you get vile or live. good, on the other hand, is just a command to go do.

question : 
what do you want to happen this summer?

for me :
i hope my job thing goes welll . haha, yeah i worry wayy too much

sorry it took so long for the post to come up , i couldnt find real good ones that i actually liked .

one
i feel like all we can talk about is people .

[ two ]
sometimes all you need is a hug & someone to tell you everything is going to be all right .

three
another cutter, another freak,
another dork, another geek,
another prep, another jock,
another whore, and more punk rock,
another hater, another gangster,
another scar they put on me.
another label that happens to fall
when no one really knows the person at all.

four
don't try to degrade yourself, you know you are so much better.

five
he said, " if i'm man enough to say that i'm sorry, you should be woman enough to take me back. "

[ six ]
you weren't there when i needed you most. you didn't call or hold me close. my heart was breaking in so many ways but you walked away knowing i wasn't okay. and i realized i was never worth it to you.

[ seven ]
you know it's changing & it's breaking your heart. there's nothing you can do except watch it& fall apart.

eight
then she looked at me & said, " i'm not a fool . are you gunna lie to me? or are you gunna tell the truth? "

[ nine ]
you think you're the only one going through pain. well, here's something you should to know : we're all in pain. some just choose to cover it, but people like you, who crave attention, like to tell the world.

ten
if you can't go through it, go around it .

question : 
how many more days of school ?
OR
how's summer ?

for me :
12 more days ; & still not done with finals or anythingg .
but its super hot .

ps : happy birthday to me :]

itss my birthday =]
i turned 15 !

new post today , to celebrate haha

this post is okay. i liked alot of the quotes .. but just not them togetherr. lol . idk

[ one ]
fear can hold you back from so many wonderful things in life, so i make myself go for things i'm afraid of. worry afterward!

[ two ]
let me ask you something, do you have, like, an alarm in your head that goes off every time i'm happy with someone else ? what do you want from me? i fly to LA, i ask you to marry me, you said no, so i moved on. why haven't you?
( one tree hill )

[ three ]
it's funny how a few words from him could make me feel a million times better.

[ four ]
i wish i could rip out a page of my memory cause i put too much energy in him & me . i can't wait to get through this phase , cause it's killing me. too bad we can't rewrite our own history .

[ five ]
i think whatever scares you is exactly where you should go because safe & comfortable means you've already done it .

[ six ]
if you mean it, i'll believe it. if you text it, i'll delete it .

seven
when i grow up, i wanna be famous, i wanna be a star, i wanna be in movies. when i grow up, i wanna see the world, drive nice cars, & i wanna have groupies .

eight
swallow my words & taste my thoughts. and if it's too nasty, spit it back at me.

[ nine ]
a heart ain't a brain, but i think that i still love you.

[ ten ]
forgetting isn't enough. you can paddle away from the memories and think they are gone, but they will keep floating back again & again & again. they circle you, like sharks. and you are bleeding your fear into the sea. until, unless, something, someone can do more than just cover the wound.

question : 
do you like rap?

for me :
its okayy, but i like listening to it when im super mad . lol