My name is Sarah Rademacher.
I actually really like my name a lot.
I'm really young for my grade.
And I really like it, even though I'm the last person to drive.

I love my hair.
I love my eyes.
I love my shoes.

I hate my skin and my body and my face.
I hate when people around me are drunk.
Unless I'm drunk.

I dont care enough about government or religion to have an opinion.

I love cutting and dyeing hair.
I love every genre of music.
Even rap and country and classical.
Especially classical.

I love taking pictures.
I love looking at art.
I love reading.

The song Sandstorm makes me really happy.
So do most dance songs.

I adore horror movies.
And anything with Angelina Jolie, Johnny Depp, Drew Barrymore, or created by Tim Burton.

My dad is really cool.
Not my mom, though.
Not really my stepmom, either.

I miss my grandma a lot.
And Justin Nichols.
And Batman.
And Jake Dudt.
And everyone else who has died.

I dont have drama in my life.
Except when it comes to Eric.
But when did he ever matter?

I hate drama, I hate bitches,
I hate people that take shit too seriously.
I hate cliques.

Everything that happens, is cliche' and predictable.
I can read minds sometimes.
And turn everything into a scene from a movie.

When I grow up, I wanna do something relating to dead people.
Or law.
Or both.

I'm really creative and artistic,
but I dont know how to display it.
Because I cant draw or anything very well.

I've learned more in the past year than I think most people learn in their entire lives.
And I've been happier and sadder than most people will ever be in their lives.

I think I'm a really cool person.
And that I am really funny.
And compassionate.

My favorite color is yellow.
My favorite animal is a tiger.
My favorite music ranges from The Used to Every Time I Die to Lil Jon to Christina Aguilera.
My favorite people are usually considered the weirdos.

My friends mean more to me than I think most people's do,
because I think we've gone through a lot more than a lot of people have.
I'm really compassionate about people
because I think that everyone has amazing qualities and is beautiful.

I'm really bad at saving money.
I like cleaning other people's houses.
I love wearing other people's clothes.

I absolutely adore wearing baggy hooded sweatshirts.
And when guys havent shaved in a few days.
And the smell of Curve.

I am extremely immature
and I'm not afraid to have fun.
But I am also extremely mature
and can carry really intelligent, deep conversations.
And it's one of my hobbies.

I've always dreamed of playing the drums
and the guitar.
And to be able to skateboard
and drive a stickshift.

My siblings and I are really close,
but I really wish we were closer.

If I died tonight, I would be okay with it.
I had a revelation this summer, listening to Circa Survive,
and now everything is alright.
I've completely changed since that night.

This summer was one of the most amazing I have ever experienced
and I wouldnt trade it in for the world.
I met some of the most amazing people ever.

I used to have a photographic memory,
but not so much anymore.

I never wanna grow up.
I hate being responsible for stuff.
But I cant wait to have kids.

One of my favorite things ever
is sitting around the fire up at my grandparent's cottage
with my drunk family
looking up at the stars, and seeing satellites.
And occasionally laying out on the dock,
and being able to see the tiniest of stars.

Pretty much everything about their cottage is my favorite.
Laying out in the sun, riding around on the paddle boat,
Jet skiing with Billy, watching fireworks,
Swimming in the middle, playing cards.

I love my family a lot.
I love my friends a lot.
They're the same thing to me.

I kinda wanna go to Grand Valley for college
Then go somewhere else for law school.

I am really good with spelling and grammar.
I dont mind when people have poor punctuation,
but spelling and grammar is a great plus.

I'm probably the last person on earth that you would wanna start a fight with.
I have a sharp tongue, and a black heart.
You can't hurt me, and if you do, I will not let you know.

I think that the human body is amazing
I think that the human mind is amazing
I think that we are so insignificant compared to the big picture.

I absolutely love playing dress up
And taking pictures of myself.
I will try anything once.

I love chinese food and seafood.
I dont like italian food or mexican food very much..
Except for pizza and crunchwraps.
ESPECIALLY crunchwraps.

I hate wearing socks and writing in pencil.
Period.

I bite the hell out of my nails.
And pen caps.
And ice cubes.

I love cookie dough
And the ice cream.
That and fried chicken are my favorite foods.
Skittles and Twizzlers are my favorite candy,
but I LOVE chocolate.

I love that feeling that I get when the hot sign is on at Krispy Kreme.
And I love slurpees.
And riding on the pegs on bikes.

I like skulls too.
And stars.

Watching clouds is one of my hobbies.
The first, and only, time that I flew,
I absolutely loved it. Clouds make me really curious.

I try to stay away from caffiene,
but I love cappucino.
Milk, water, and Sierra Mist are my favorite things to drink.
I love it when milk is really, really cold.
And when the ice melts in water.
And when pop is so cold that it tingles when you drink it.

I have really serious trust issues,
thanks to my mother, my exboyfriend, and my best friend.
But when it comes down to it,
I guess it's actually my fault.

My favorite movies include
the Faculty, Sin City, Lord of the Rings, Donnie Darko, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
My favorite books include
the Perks of Being A Wallflower, Dangerous Angels, and Me Talk Pretty One Day.
My favorite tv shows include
Inuyasha, Boy Meets World, Real World, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Family Guy, and Futurama.

I adore anime.
I think that the animation is amazing.
I have a serious crush on Inuyasha.

I think that racism is stupid.
And sexism.
And anything that views one person being superior to another.
Because in my eyes, we all came from the same place and we're all going to the same place.

I've always dreamed of being an author,
or an artist.. or a musician..
But everything that I am a part of, isnt good enough.
Everything that I write, or create, isnt as good as other people's.
I have such a hard time pulling things together.

I like boy stuff, like football and riding quads.
I love fishing and playing cards.
I have a similar mindset as guys too.

I have a really hard time dealing with closeminded people.
And I dont really make things into a big deal.

I think that everything in the entire universe
can easily be summed up by the idea,
"To love and to be loved".
Because that's really what it's all about.

When I feel like shit, I listen to music.
No matter what.
It is really the only thing that is a constant in my life.
And I am so proud of my ability to understand music.
It consumes me.

I used to love playing outside.
Swinging and playing ball with my brother.
I wish I still did that.
I wish people didnt act like they had to act a certain way to be viewed as mature.
Because guess what? Everyone likes swinging.

I used to wanna kill myself.
I used to think that there was no one and there was nothing.
I used to be so ignorant and close minded.

I can carry a conversation with anyone about anything.
I am the least shy person you will ever meet
And I despise awkward moments.
I dont let them occur, usually.
And I am almost never, ever bored.

I hate it when people eat loud, or smoke loud.
I hate it when people do, or dont do, things because they are afraid of what others will think.
I hate it when people are scared, because I feel so helpless.
I hate listening to people younger than me talk,
because it reminds me of when I used to be dumb and care about who someone else was kissing.
I hate it that so many people that I am close to have given up their dreams.

I think that sex should mean something.
And that it should never be used to get back at people.
And plus, I dont think it's anything special.

I miss when people were still innocent.
Not that I have a problem with people doing drugs, or having sex
but everything was so much easier and healthier before that stuff started happening.

I have a really hard time with goodbyes
I usually rely on people to take care of me,
even if they dont realize it.
Some of the most important, influential people in my life,
dont even know it.
And I'm torn on whether I wanna let them know.

I've always wanted to get my nails done
And I always wanted to be a cheerleader.
Or be really rich.

I pretty much know and understand all the secrets to the universe
but sometimes I have a hard time listening to myself.
Actually, make that a lot of time.
But I'm really good at helping people. And finding the good in things.

I am deathly afraid of growing up and being just like my mom.
Or growing up and never being happy.
And I'm deathly afraid of mice.

I love cuddling with people.
Just touching people makes me feel a lot better.
I love it when I'm talking to people and they reach out and touch my shoulder or arm or something.
I love making people laugh. Or smile. Or feel better.

I wish more people wanted to be my friend
and that I didnt have to pursue them.
But I dont really mind enough to do anything about it.

When other people are as random and fun as me,
I enjoy it thoroughly.
Because I need to know that there are other people like me, sometimes.

Even though I dont care what other people think of me,
it doesnt mean that I dont hear it.
And I beat myself up over stuff a lot.

And sometimes other people beat me up.
But never a girl, because I would ruin her life.
But I guess I ruins guys lives like that too.

I am a great friend to have around,
though I can be really annoying.
But I am a horrible enemy to have as well.
Because I can be really annoying.

I have the kind of best friends that you see on movies.
The ones who let themselves in and talk to my family.
And who are there no matter the hour or situation.
I dont even know how to stay mad at them.

I wish at every 11:11 that I can.
And on shooting stars.
And the first star I see.
And on eye lashes.
And on wish bones.
I make a lot of wishes.
And whether or not I usually admit it,
they usually come true.

I have a tendency of using similar vocabulary as the people around me
And their laughs, I often pick up
And their physical stance
And their handwriting.

I wish I was more organized sometimes.
But when it comes down to it,
I'm one of the most organized people that I know.

I have a lot of really shitty things going on in my life,
and I always have,
but somehow I manage to succeed in academics
AND being really cool.
But I do breakdown a lot and get really emotional.

I go through serious ups and downs.
Usually the downs last only about a week though.
But when I saw down, I mean down.
Learning experience, right?

I've always been jealous of people who can play piano.
And who have a lot of money.
But never people who are in love.
Because I'll bet you anything that their relationship doesnt work out.

I like talking to people the most in person.
There is something so much more appealing about being able to look at people.
Or touch them. Or something.
But it's so much more convenient to talk online.
And so much less personal, making it easier to say stuff you wouldnt normally in person.
The phone falls somewhere between, I guess.

I love babies. Not just humans, but animals.
Anything so innocent and ignorant is extremely admirable to me.

I've listened to songs and started crying.
I've seen people and started crying.
I've seen people and gotten sick to my stomach.
I've gotten sick to my stomach, and seen people.
I guess it's just a cycle.

I absolutely love fall.
I love when the leaves fall.
I love celebrating my birthday.
I love the way people look in hoodies.
I love being held when I'm chilly. Especially by people I care about.
Including my best friends.

I've always been a compulsive liar
And I hate hurting people's feelings.
I believe in Santa.
Because everyone need something to believe in.

Although I absolutely hate drama,
I LOVE having enemies.
It's such a game.
I love games.

Reading lyrics is one of my hobbies.
I love reading how people can compose their thoughts into such pretty words.
I love listening to pretty music.
I love listening to screamo. It's so raw.

I always laugh when I sit at the computer
and my family looks at me like I'm kooky.

I am really proud of the person who I have become
But there is so much more that I wish I knew.
And I wish I could help people more.

Playing DDR is one of my favorite things to do. Ever.
So is playing NES, SNES, or N64.
I bet I can beat you in most video games.

I think zombies are freaking sweet.
Same thing with red hair.
And I am really good with cars.

I always have to help people jump their cars,
and I know how to change oil.
I think cars are a good thing to know about,
since it's kinda what everyone uses as transportation.

..And this isnt even the start of it.