Have you ever wished that sometimes, you could rewind the clock to a particular incident, undo some things you've said or done, fore wind the clock again and only allow those things to happen NOW?

Have you ever wished you hadn’t given your first kiss away to that nerdy boy in high school? Or said your first "I love you" to a boy you didn’t even love? (You did it just because you thought it was a nice thing to do) Or allowed some eeky boy to hold your hand for the first time because you wanted to feel what it was like to be romantic?

*I do* (disclaimer: instances given above are purely fictional  )

I wish I could undo all my firsts to save them for today, because the firsts are always the most valuable… the most meaningful!  

But what if you cannot undo what has already been said and done? (reality check: you really cannot la) And what if you feel like whatever you're doing today just isn't carrying the weight it's supposed to carry, just because it isn't your first time doing or saying it? And what if you make it up by repeatedly doing and saying it like you're a broken record? 

And what if the person you want to experience all your firsts with tells you that it doesn't matter that what you say or do now aren't your firsts, because what matters most is that you have the chance to say and do it now... and that you'll be able to say and do it for the rest of your life?

I think I will try my best to force out a giggle - but what I really want to do is to cry and tell that person that no other words could be as precious as what was just said.