| hmm. well im bored out of my mind. and im extroadinarily tired because of the softball marathon still. which was absolutely amazing im not going to lie. me and sarah and kim stayed there until 4:30 in the morning because we are retarded. annnd i was insanely loopy and really hyper because it was so late and for other reasons. and i was cheering on the grace team. woot. yeah. it was intense. got chased down by a cop with sarah and chris and kaylee and marnie and abbie. now that was excitement. and going to hyvee and like 2:30 in the morning was great. who shops at hyvee at 2:30 in the morning that person was psycotic.oh but it was fun. but then i had to try on costumes at 9:30 in the morning so i got five hours of sleep. oh the boys of the play look like munchkins (chris) oh it was cute. yeah. im excited for that one. oh the play will be great.
and now i have to finish the huge bible project thats due tomorrow and that i started only a couple of hours ago. yep half done with it. otay. buhbye.
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| a year ago yesturday was the worst day of my life. i dont mean that in the dramatic teenage girl way.. it really was the worst day i could ever imagine. august 12. the dreaded august 12. the day we moved to pella iowa. i still remember it like it just happened, unfortuneately. this whole week i have just been in a terrible mood (sorry chris), knowing that august 12 was around the corner. i have never cried more in my entire life than in that day. i posted pictures all around my mirror in my closet of everyone i knew in holland. i looked at it one night and just started bawling. eighth grade year was quite possibly my favorite year. i felt like my life was set.. i have AMAZING friends that i could count on.. school wasnt so tough.. and i just had the most fun with everyone than i did in any other year. and although it should be the worst because of the "home trouble" and because of moving.. but i still loved every moment of it. but now? i absolutely hate high school. i cannot wait for the day i walk out those doors to graduate, and never have to come back. i want to just be able to start my own life and rid myself of all the high school drama that no one cares about. i want to be able to see people i want to see, and forget about the people that hurt me. i know everyone is ready to be "grown-up." but i cant wait. high school is supposed to be the greatest time of your life right? so why am i so miserable? ..maybe im just being dramatic.
holland was my home. all my friends are there. we promised we would stay best friends. but honestly? i feel replaced. they all have moved on from an eighth grade friendship. or at least thats how it feels. i had so many different groups of people. but when you're gone you find who your true friends were. tina abby cait and claire were the people i would always see. but i always feel like im a nuisence when i come to town.. forcing them to hang out with me when they could be doing other productive things. dad and kristina are in holland this weekend, i was going to go.. but i just didnt want to. holland isnt home anymore. my house has been completely destroyed and i dont even know holland anymore. i still love my friends there.. but i dont know. i feel like ive lost my best friends.. i feel like ive lost my home.. im not saying pella is home by any means. i absolutely hate pella. and most of the people ive talked to feel the same way. when you visit pella you feel so welcomed.. but when you stay.. the people make you feel like an outsider. i can count the people i honestly like with my two hands. in all of pella. two hands. all it takes. i dont know what i would do without my dear sarah. id be bored. and without chris. umm.. probably not so good. no offense to anyone.. but without those two.. wow pella would be awful..
on a lighter note.. this weekend had some perks. i was able to go to the state fair. since it is so amazing and everything. yeah its pretty cool. camped there this weekend with chris and his parents. hmm i kinda like this kid i guess.. i spent some money. ate some food (dippin dots. woot) (yeah sarah i saw the cinnebon!!!! didnt get it though..sorry) anyway so this weekend was fun for the most part. tomorrow me and mom meet amara (shes back from asia) and dad and kristina in chicago. then we see wicked. which im pretty excited about.
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY CAITLIN.
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| BIBLE CAMP. okay so this was a new experience. i sound dumb going to bible camp and all.. but hey i dont care. everyone except like 7 people were from our school so it worked out. i wanted to go because spiritual renewal week was so amazing and all. sunday monday and tuesday were slow for me and i had just an "okay" time. but tuesday night was amazing. the message was incredible and nearly all the girls were crying. and a few boys so im told.. it was really good that it gave me a new perspective. wednesday was my favorite day.. and we came home today at like four. im so dead tired i cant really recall fun events that took place. i was so mad that i left my camera in our boat.. so i bought two disposable cameras to take along. yup didnt take a single picture. oh well.
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| so this weekend i was in holland again. it was a good weekend since i saw most of my close friends. i went on our boat twice and swam in the lake.. saw PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN. which was incredible. left you hanging though.. but it was amazing so its okay. me and tina could pick out the tiniest things that related to the first movie since we can basically quote the entire thing. oh man. chris came up.. he had to see an ACTUAL lake. lake michigan. beautiful. id put pictures since i like doing that.. but my camera is currently in our boat.. in storage.. in michigan.. seven hours away. so i cant. oh well.
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