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I have a prayer request....

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 16:12:29 GMT

Hey All.

I know i don't update this very much, but i have something i need your help with.

My dad went to the doctor today. The doctor said his hepatitis c was starting to come back. My dad has been clear for a couple of years now and for it to come back heart breaking. He's already gone through so much, i hate to think of him having to go through all the medication again. The doctor wants to wait 3 months to see what all is going on before the start him on another round of treatment. The one they want my dad to do next means he will have to take shots everyday instead of once or twice a week like last time. He told me all the people he knows who have taken that treatment (i don't know the name...) got really really sick.

But i'm hopeful that he will not have to take this treatment. I know about the power that prayer can have. Miracles are still happening today. And i'm praying that my dad will be one of them. Please...help me by praying for him too. That his Hepatitis will go back into remission and he won't have to take any more shots. And that maybe through all of this he will begin to build a relationship with God. Thank you.

~Sara

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Sat, 13 May 2006 22:53:34 GMT

So a lot has happend...ish. I am now 19. I feel so old sometimes...but i'm still really a youngon, so whatever. I still feel like i'm 16...i miss it, it was so safe somehow.

I went to mexico. That was just amazing. Really amazing. the kids down there were so loving, and accepting, and caring. It was hard to come back home. I enjoyed the shoping down there. I bought a hammock. It is pretty sweet. I bought a rope of garlic like in the vampire movies. That is freaking sweet. Too bad no vampires to keep away. I got some other random stuff too. it was fun. But the best part by far was spending time with those kids.

I did the mom's day thing to day. I have to work tomorrow. That bites. i don't even work Sundays...i guess they are going to be really busy or something like that.

I think that`s about all that is going on in my life. A bunch of other random stuff has been goin down, but nothing worth writing about.

~Sara

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 02:51:05 GMT

I hate how i let things affect me so much. I get so angry so fast. I get tired too quickly. I hate how i react without thinking. I have no patience anymore. I am so selfish it's not even funny.

My heart hurts, and my head is tired of thinking about it. who ever said we had to be in Love made a grave mistake. I'm tired of wanting someone to hold onto and care about. I'm ok not knowing...but it would be great and easy to know a name or at least a date.

Chris Farley is on tv. His story is sad. I feel bad for him. He had so much potential. So much.

WOW. i just saw a commercial for a reality show called "God or the girl?" What is up with that? Did they run out of ideas. That is not good. Not good at all.

I should go to bed. I have to be up in 5 hours. so...good night.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 00:49:48 GMT

Ok, maybe i gave myself too much credit. I merely kept up with Marc the other day and didn't let him burn me. Either way, i was really happy and i figured did pretty good for me.

People are weird. Very weird.

When does stating a fact or asking a question cross the line into complaining? I'm not sure, and have been informed that i've crossed that line quite frequently. I don't know, maybe i do complain a lot. I'd like to think i have a positive out look on life, but maybe i'm just a cynical, pessimistic person deep down, and i have yet to realize this fact.

I swear i'm not as dumb as i seem.

~Sara

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 18:36:43 GMT

I so burned Marc last night! I even got a high five from him for the action. *does a dance* go Sara! If you guys know the day to day crud i get from that kid, you'd be happy for me too! it was most fun.

Saw that Stay Alive movie yesterday...it was interesting. kinda creepy...but the whole bad villiany thing look way too computerized to provide any real threat to me...so it lacked that element of scarage...otherwise, not too bad.

Went to Chi Alpha. That was fun. Found out this dude i know is joined the National Guard and is leaving in 2 weeks. Rob and Kim are pregnant. And thing are starting to move crazy fast. It's wierd...you like hit this certain age, and everything around you changes. People are leaving left and right, people are getting married, people are having babies...It like you realize that everything that is happening to other people is everything you want...But all you can do is wait for it to happen. It's all good, this life is a blessin.

Take care. Much love.

~Sara

Dedicated to Hannah Massey:

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 00:21:04 GMT

Life has been rather loveable, except for tonight. Well, it was mostly good. The little kids not listening to me made me feel bad. It hurt, and made me wonder about the future and if i really have what it takes to work with kids. But i am determined not to let one bad night change my life.

Pretty Woman is on. Despite the whole prostitute thing, it's a nice love story. Classic fairy tale. Down and out girl meets amazing Man to rescue her from the horrors of life. To protect and save her. *sigh* Protection. Safety. There is nothing like the feeling of being held tight in a guys arms. Friend or not those kind of hugs make a girl feel taken care of, which deep down every girl, no matter what she may say wants. And i'm being sappy. i'm sorry. one day. *sigh* The best thought in the world is that i'm living my own romantic comedy right now and i don't even realize it. You have to have that begining to set you up for that great fall.

Wow. I really am a sap sometimes.

I'm writing this on a lap top. it's pretty cool.

O well, nothing more to say, take care my dearies who haven't given up hope on me and who continue to still read this...

~Sara

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 01:27:20 GMT

I think i'm leaving...After this year.....like leaving leaving...not journal leaving...but physically getting up and going leaving...

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 22:17:59 GMT

wow. so...i backed into a tree tonight. Yeah...countless dollars of damage...i don't know how bad yet...part of my bumper fell off, i have grass stains on my side thing, and my tail light broke...

I couldn't help but laugh.

Despite that, it was still an AMAZING day!

*sigh*

it was really good.

~Sara

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 22:31:08 GMT

So...

Life is crazy. BUSY! I'm now employeed at applebee's! everyone should come and visit me! Hm. A lot has been goin down lately. But it is all good. Just loads on the mind, but what else is new? Good Times. Excited about Halloween, workin, dressin up and cornmazin...excited! Yeah! welp i'm out. Much Love kids!

~Sara

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 22:30:24 GMT

Ok. I'm updating. I suck I know. I've just had so much on my mind lately. And a neverending supply of homework! yeah!

Well, quit bath and body and am now currently looking for a new job. I'm hearing Applebee's calling my name...lol. But its all good.

Um. things have been great. Lifewatch has been keepin me busy, growing, tired, amazed, awestruck, hurting, and all around its been great!

welp, thats about all. so later!

~Sara