MUSIC SPAM TIME. yes, nothing to write about, so, music video spammmmmmmm , with a sample of most of the genre's I like..... minus metal.....I know your puny hearts can't take it.
On this day, I see clearly, everything has come to life A bitter place, and a broken dream And we'll leave it all behind On this day, its so real to me Everything has come to life Another chance, to chase a dream Another chance to feel Chance to feel alive
Chemistry practical tomorrow and I don't know what to think, prelims tell me I've studied enough, my tution teacher tells me otherwise. I definetly havn't studied enough for history/physics and amath yet its getting more and more sian everyday,hopefuly I can sustain until its over. Gotta pretend that there was no prelims, gotta ignore people's comments " you got dsa, study for what?", gotta keep going. 34 days(816 hours/48960 mins/2.9million seconds) til Os are over( no bio ftw!), 12 days til the theory papers start..
Last tuesday, I went for a kidney biopsy, a diagnostic test to see what specific disease I have. Today I found out it is IgA Nephropathy, a disease related to HSP and with 3 main types. Theres a type which gets progressive worse, but does so extemely slowly, then theres another which can cause acute kidney failure. But thankfully I have as what the doctor puts it " a good kind of problem" which is a varient that has occasional spikes, but does little or no significant damage. Probable cause for it is genetic, but mainly it is considered quite random and unpredictable/unpreventable.
All this time I was thinking of the worse, never being able to play rugby again, never being able to eat or drink anything I want, never being able to live a normal life, but thanks to God's grace, as things stand, I will be able to live life to the fullest, albeit with a little medication for quite a while.
But with recent events such as the poor kid who died doing chin ups in NS, it really wakes you up to the cold hard reality of life, its unfair as hell. The guy was of A grade fitness, combat fit and yet he died while doing routine exercises. Antonio Puerta, a 22 year old spanish proffesional footballer died of a heart attack he got during a match. Pierre Spies, a 23 year old rugby player had to withdraw from the 2007 world cup south african squad because of genetic blood disorder that developed blood clots in his lungs( hes back to playing rugby this year). Its really a pity, when you do nothing wrong( or nothing related to whats happening to you) yet you get inflicted with all these kind of things, yet how some people can go on smoking/excessively drinking for decades without any notable consequences.
Mine isn't anywhere near as serious as those guys, but through this I've learned to respect life more, to want to do more with it , because you never know if something totally unexpected/random happens, you might look back at a wasted life, and feel nothing but regret.
Things will never be like last time, it can get better , but it'll never be the same. Im being selfish no doubt, but I can't change the way I feel, although Im trying really hard. My friendship is far less meaningful than his, so I'd rather be left out in the cold.
