it’s starting to suck even more. i’m not sure if it’s in my head or it’s really the relationship that i have with them. maybe i’m just not their kind. not the mandarin-speaking, lame jokes and food person, that’s probably way. i’m talking about work. maybe it’s time to move on, but it has only been a year. but i’ve seen so many resumes that people are moving around the industry even if they have less than a year’s experience. so will it be wrong for me to move? i’m not sure. should i or should i not? i’ve been troubled by this questions for the past week or so. well i guess if something falls into my lap that is a good opportunity i’ll probably take it. well, we’ll see how it goes i guess. but i love what i’m doing now. and i do like the people that i work with but i just can’t understand them sometimes. oh well. we’ll see.

by the way, my eye is a whole lot better. thanks for the well wishes peeps! much love.

sorry guys, i know it’s been a while since i blogged again… but this time you can’t blame me cause i was hospitalized last week and i got discharged last thursday and i am suppose to be on hospitalization leave until the 26^th june but apparently someone in the office is making noise so i have to come back to work… oh right i haven’t told you guys why… well i got admitted because of a severe cornea infection due to contact lenses…. and now it’s still red.. and i can’t see so well, my vision is blurred and i’m not suppose to be staring at the computer screen for too long but what to do… was asked to come back to work… no choice… but anyway… i’ll update again soon… gotta get back to work now…. hugs to all…..

i had a great weekend, it was filled with people i love and interesting activities… well not much interesting activities but a lot of drinking. haha. what’s new. i cleaned up my place a lot. my revamping of my house is coming along just fine. can’t wait for it to be fully done.

anyway, have you ever thought of what you would do if you knew that you only had 24 hours left to live? well i never actually thought of it cause i mean no one actually knows when you’re going to move on right? but i guess i’ll probably spent a lot of time with my love ones doing the things we love and laughing about it. not thinking that in just a few hours we can’t be together. drink to my heart’s content. get my tats done. call my friends and enemies to make peace with them, tell some of my enemies how i really feel. make sure that my love ones are going to be taken care of and that they will not worried about me. most importantly to watch the last sunset that i can in the company of my friends and family if possible.

then is goodbye to this world and hello to my mum. at least something good will be coming out of it, that i’ll be able to see my mum and to be able to hold her hands and walk with her again…