I dislike the word "break-up".
it was my fault in the first place and i dnt ever want to hurt you in any way. I really want you know that.
I do appreciate you and most importantly,
I appreciate every bits of our relationship.

I truly want you to be my happily ever after. because I love you.

high school's finally over. and i think im gnna miss you the most  
and sorry for being so insecure lately. i just hate the fact that there's another person
out there loves you as much as i do. Espcially her. i feel gay sayin this but ..
really i think i'll go insane if i dn't say it .... 

她跟我一樣看見了你所有的優點
她跟我一樣除了你什麼都要的決心
她跟我一樣有著想要佔有你的慾望
她跟我一樣曾為了你而徹夜不眠過
她跟我一樣曾為你哭過 心痛過

最重要的昰 她跟我一樣 很愛你.

傻瓜 如果當初我沒有抓緊那個機會 那如今的情況是不是就會大不同呢?
老實說 我真得很怕 真得很沒安全感 很怕哪天 你會是屬於她的.

i have the urge to tell you everything, to be fully honest from now on
and stop hiding how I feel towards you and towards her. I dn't ever want my chance to slip away.

i feel moody. Not in the mood for grad dinner dance.
*sigh .. Goodbye High school.

i have been working like crazy these days
stupid spring break stupid easter
stupid ms tan and her stupid vocabs
i basically spent my whole spring break working and doing her hw.
URGH.

and people these days have attitude problems. seriously.
fck fck fck.

oh .. and CRAP
LPI in less than two weeks. ddnt really study much  ...

im not worthy.
im not worthy.
im not worthy.

i always thought that mayb you're better off with her?

thanks alot for everything. at least i feel more secure now.
i promise. ill be more honest from now on 
i  you

edit. //
i think i miss you a lil too much these days.

sorry for feelin` insecure.
even though i dnt say it as often, but just to let you know ..
I like you too ..

still cant believe i actually .. said it.