i was reminded today, in the most roundabout way, that the most perfect act of love...is sacrifice.

now that i think of it, none of the schools i've applied to are schools that i'm dying to get into. in all honesty, there isn't one school, whether i've applied or not, that i've really had my heart set on attending. and that is really freaking me out right now.

i have the best life everrrrr. and its seriously the small things that make me happy like bringing brian coffee at work<333 and talking about embarrasing moments in peer and reconnecting with certain people and telling people i know chris and mike from streetlight and getting good grades and having gay guy friends (best thing EVER) and having awesome color guard instructors and almost being done with college applications and driving and listening to music in my car and parking and maryland being the best weekend of my life and dance parties in hotel rooms and seeing my entire family really soon and keeping in touch with people who have graduated and cute boys and knowing there are people who back me up and being liked and surprise faces and winning nominations for senior superlative and EVERYTHING!

And its weird knowing that in 10 months, none of this is going to matter because i'm going to be in college (hopefully haha) and i'm not going to be bringing coffee to brian at work and i'm not going to be involved with high school activities and i'm going to be growing up... but seriously, i'm having the best time ever and i wouldn't change it for the world.

with thanksgiving coming up, i just want to say i'm thankful for everything - for who i am and for the life i have. it doesn't get any better than this.

You know its bad when guidance sends you a letter telling you to get your college applications in!! hahah. seriously, i'm doing it this weekend!! ... maybe! Its going to suck when I don't get into college. haha.

and ps;

BALTIMORE OR BUST! SUP NATIONAL CHAMPIONSHIPS!?