went to bed at nine;;

woke up at one;;

came on the computer;;

still on it;;

bored;;

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subscribe to it.. or i'll kill you.

time for a change.. right?

lifexsucks
get over it
<3

...whoopss/// try it again...

    

so things have been going good <3 ;; i kinda like it.

i'm ready for this change.


editt;;


Btv; Coach; Abigail; Krista; Campbell; Kuff; Thug-Nasty; Kristine - Leeza && I.


Abigail; Campbell; Kristine; Krista; Kuff; Thug-Nasty
Me; Coach; Leeza -- && Btv.

Kris; Krista; Campbell; Btv; Me; Kuff; Abigail; Leeza; Thug-Nasty.

Isn't it funny how sometimes the truth is right infront of you, but you chose not to see it..
     Either that or you're just plain stupid
It's your lies, && his allibies,maybe you belong together.  Everybody's hiding their dirty secrets... some just do it better then others 
  jealousy sparks bad decision making... or fun decision making, i guess it's just how you look at it

      I think i've changed more then i'd like to admit..
 

I need you like water, like breath like RAINNN..  u know u like my singing voice..
      monday.. tuesday... wednesday...  just grin and get through it
I think i'd plan my life around you... yea... ur right, it's pathetic


editt;;

The shoebox filled with all of the pictures and notes are put underneath my bed.  The board behind my door is almost bare, the one with my favorite pictures, I took those down .  The picture frame that's on my makeup chest is empty, even though that picture reminds me how good things used to be. All of the roses you've gotten me, I threw those away, too. I don't like May either, it reminds me of everything we used to have.  I've tried eliminating the daily reminders of us, it's just not possible. I've lost all love for you. I've lost any hope i've ever had. I take most responsibility for letting us fall apart, I never did anything about it. I won't let anyone treat me the way I treated you. You were the best boyfriend you could be. You were there for me, every damn time I needed it most. You did anything I asked you to. You've gone out of your way to make me happy. You made our one year special;; the beach, the breeze, && the one thing I gave up - to you. You deserve so much better. I'm not bitter, but maybe this is the right thing to do. I've learned so much. Thank you for being the best boyfriend that you could be. My love just wasn't enough. && We both know it. 

    
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Thanks to Daddy Vuko, we all got our dinner paid for last night. It was very generous of him. He also hooked us up with rooms at the Holiday Inn. I had a room with Kuff && Kristine. We had a good time. Well, Abigail(GAIL) && I did. *Tried going on the roof.. but the gangsta security gaurd wouldn't hook us up.* I couldn't sleep last night. I thought it was because I was really excited for the game, but that wasn't it. I felt as if something needed to be done, or said. && he needs to know. So I came to the conclusion that I'll go for it. Simply because ;; I love him.

Overall.. I had a good night. && Even tho our boys lost, I'm still proud with their season, && how much of a fight they put up each game. Love ya boys!

Farewell..