| wow, i dunno if i just never fully took this stuff in or if lately it really has been happening more often....but it just seems like lately more and more people i know are hurt in some way. maybe its because im getting older and things affect me more deeply. there's so much loss everyday and so much hurt...its really sad, but its such a reality...its weird. people lose people they love everyday, things go wrong....but i think it just has to be accepted as part of life and we have to be grateful for the things we do have. but damn, nothing is guaranteed, at all. i hate uncertainty.
but anyway, im grateful for how this school year ended...many ups and downs...but lookin back it was pretty good. can't believe im half way done with college tho..that ish is crazy.
hmm, but back to losing ppl you love. that ish is really traumatizing...i can't even imagine..but we all will experience it at one time or another. but losing a parent or child...that shit sucks. it kind of sucks to think about it too...but like i said its such a reality that i think we all have to accept.
but yah, im just really excited for this summer, i hope the drama is kept to a minimum and a lot of fun is to be had. i can't wait to talk and chill with everyone..since during the school year i don't realy do that...i feel like im missin out on a lot of stuff lol. but yah i can't wait for the beach, for money, for relaxation, for love, for florida....sigh. god is good.
r.i.p faithlyn
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| i think im gonna start utilizing this again. i was really stressed out about this upcoming week...now im not. i got my 10 page research paper extended til after break..my midterm on wednesday seems like it'll be alright....well not that im positive on a good grade but it won't be hard to study for. i'm kinda excited because i get to visit him. i'm also excited for maybe getting to work out at home for spring break (hopefully get some guidance!)....
all the other things in life that make me feel like i suck...i'm going to ignore right now. i have a good outlook right now, i just feel better at the moment. we will see tho.
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| damn...this last final...i need jesus right now....hopefully everyone else sucks too and im somewhere nice on the curve lol..i doubt it tho...can't wait for it to be over..but jus thinkin about how bad imma do sucks. kay tis all...jesus help me...please. me |
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| i miss sean. i miss home. im BSing on all my schoolwork right now. Next week is gonna suck, i'm going to have to cram for my finals...this weekend i better get on my grind. next semester will suck evenmore...but im kinda excited for it...so ill feel productive. tis all. |
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| i love my baby..yup yup i love my boy. ...sucks its gonna be a year til i see him next tho.... i have a test in 20 minutes...oy vey...hope i can figure that one out... |
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