So for some strange reason I kind of feel like going to the HPER right now. I'm not going to though. I might try and focus that energy into doing some homework instead. I needed to be productive all weekend, but I wasn't, so now it's Sunday night panic time. Need to do, at the very least, one honors journal, the bibliography for my honors policy paper, and the bibliography & outline for my art history research paper. If I somehow get any more productive than that, I could actually write the honors paper and do a few more journals, but that probably isn't going to happen tonight, unfortunately. I might clean my room some more though. That tends to help me be more productive in the long run.

I'm so ready for spring break. And to be caught up with homework. And to get away from Conway for awhile I think. Just to go home and try and have some time to myself to think about what I want to do with my life. I really need to decide what to do about my schedule for next year. As sad as it is, I'm leaning more towards quitting marching band than before. I think it's probably time to get away from what I'm used to and focus on what I need to do to get my degree, have a good portfolio for grad school, and have the time to study French seriously. Like, time for growing up. And trying to figure out a way to get away from here. I love UCA and I actually don't hate Jonesboro, but I want to go somewhere big and exciting and scary and challenging.

And figuring out how to make myself happy and be single and focus on myself should be a major priority. I don't really want to, but I probably should. I've been in a relationship for so long I don't think I really know how to function properly on my own, which is a pretty important life skill, I'm sure.

Man, I just wasted a ridiculous amount of time making schedule things to post on facebook instead of doing homework. I'm feeling pretty pathetic at the moment and not in a very good mood. Ah well, life goes on. Que sera, sera. Even if it sucks, lol.

Love,
Emma