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| More than a year later.. .Wow-- check out my profile pic! I think I'm going to leave it at that. Geez, so long ago.. Anyway, I felt like I should keep up a blog. It helps me remember things, since my memory is very.. short-circuited. Ehh. :/*
Anyway.. I left work a little bit earlier to go to the gym+ to start on my reading for my English 1B class. Rosemead Ballys is apparently under construction, and the whole upstairs cardio room is in shambles, and the running track is blocked with all the cardio equipment.. so I headed home to get my gym towel to go to the Pasadena Ballys. And I'm still here. Hahh.. so bad :(*
I think I need a nap. Darn tension headaches.. I took medicine for it two days ago, and I can still feel the drowsy, sleepy high from it. I'm still laughing at things that aren't funny.
So.. since my last few blogs, in the past year I got my baby pekingese #2, Apple. She's white with a few tan spots on her ears and back. She's a little diva. She wants attention all the time. Urgh, no sleep!. And I just went to the Ontario Mills Outlet yesterday, and spent over two bills when I'm in enough debt. UGH!!.
So my goal for the next month? Lose some weight, and lose some debt. Go to the gym, and not the mall. Stop spending money like water. But come September, and I've got to pay for Fall '08 books. Damn it. And winter-y clothes soon after that. And more contact lenses.. pretty soon. Damn itttttt.
I am a procrastinator. I still have my darn essay to write. Effing english class.. .
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| PinkM&M's.Yeah. I got off of work. And I am eating pink m&m's. I like pink alot. My dog's back home cus Nino can't keep him. Fuck. And neither can I. I really need to figure things out cus I really don't want to see him leave. I love him to death. I remember the first day I laid eyes on him.. I wanted a yorkshire terrier initially, but geez, the way Banana and his siblings were able to flatten themselves on the floor was so fricken cute! They attacked the grass! And Banana was soooo tiny.! He was the little runt that was always wet for some weird reason or another.. The next couple of days he was in my posession, we thought he was going to die cus he was always so tired and sick. But he pulled through. He went from a measly 4 pounds, to a rockin 11. And I'm so proud of him. He's so Attention Deficit. He chases leaves, and doesn't run after cats. He doesn't even fight for takeout food that gets brought home like other annoying ass little dogs. +he hardly ever barks. Man.. I always end up with these FABULOUS personalities in puppies.. and I'm forced to give them up. I've wanted a dog soo bad since foreverness ago.. I feel so heart broken over this.. | | |
| Black Hole..It seriously feels like this negative energy is just sucking me in. I went to sleep last night watching my phone. Hoping my body's energy can stay alive for just a couple more moments, and that in those couple more moments, someone would call me back. The longing of falling asleep to someone else falling asleep on the phone. My life seems so routine; I go to work, to go to work, to go to sleep, to go to work. But at the same time I hate how boring it is, it's the only thing I've got. It's the only thing I can rely on in this world right now, the only thing stable ever in my life. I keep wondering when I'm going to give up. I work for money, and the money goes to neccessities, and shopping. But what the hell am I shopping for? Shoes and clothes to impress no one? To wear when I'm not going out? Everything I've bought in the past forever, I haven't worn because I'm always at work. I miss dressing up and getting ready for someone, and I have a huge chance this Friday, but honest to God, who the hell am I getting ready for? Someone who can care less, someone who doesn't deserve my effort, someone who probably won't even notice how much I put into it? Am I just torturing myself, and forcing myself into painful situations because it's the only thing I know and am familiar with? As soon as anything remotely happy or pleasant happens in my life, I search for a reason that it's too good to be true. I find that reason, and I hold on. Yes, Vivian needs stability in her life. And if that one stable thing throughout everything is flaws, pain, and tears, then so be it. At least something is familiar and comforting. Even if it is awkward. | | |
| YAY! IQUITSANRIO<3 so I finallyfinally finally left sanrio. i've been wanting to quit since i started. for the past three weeks, i've had a two weeks notice letter in my purse to give them, but never got the balls to turn it in. it was when i called in friday night to find that polina (manager) had assigned me work on nov. 25, that was the last straw. i had given her two notes since one month ago, stating i'm not available to work that day. i wasn't asking for permission to get the day off. i was telling her i can't come. <^> i don't need a job that gives 4-5 hours a day, twice a week.. only fricken two bills a month! wtf am i supposed to do with that money? it's not even enough for food to live off of. anyway, i got so mad that their cheap asses can't hire more employees so that we can get days off when we need them. plus, i talked to her after my shift yesterday, and she was pretty rude telling me that that's my schedule.. and "just because you ask for a day off doesn't mean i'll give it to you". She KNOWS it's a thanksgiving dinner with my family.. and that there's no possible way i can go to work. ughhh. so yeah. i just decided to fuck the 2weeks letter. it's not a requirement to give your company a letter of resignation- it's COMMON DECENCY & RESPECT. but if she doesn't have the mutual common decency /respect to grant me ONE DAY OFF, then fuck that shit, nigga. i never even ask for days off. I think this is my second, or at most, third, time I asked for a day to not be scheduled due to other priorities. ughasdoihaisd. but yea. I bought that juicy couture charm bracelet for myself as a little present. : ) i want a necklace nowwww. and my puppy's cuter than ever, with his santahat/ sweater+ coach accessoriesss. plus, todays the FIRST DAY in two months, i think? that i don't have work. i am happpppppppppppier than ever : ] | | |
| wtf// xangaschanged.so xanga looks completely different, and pretty.. scary. i liked it better when it was simpler.. . anyway.. to update, look what the boys did with my car :x ah he he he.. all pink : ). and and.. i've got a baby now. his name's banana. he was born sept. 4, 2006, and he's a little pekinese<3. i just went on a trip outta town with my babe yesterday to go buy my baby his new coach collar and leash <33333333 hehe heeee! he's sooo cute now. <3 <3 <3 oh, and my hair is REALLY short now. really really short. where i can't really even tie it up anymore. :x wooh changes changes. ..  | | |
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