so was talkinng to one of my co workers from my inernship in new york for the makeup company. so basically the conversatoin with him reminded me how that company was such hell and my job was SO LAME cus i do PR stuff and that can get pretty lame ( making goody bags for movie stars and bullshit about how great our products are and read vogue to find out about latest makeup trend..blaallba sounds fun but is lame as hell..trust me).  now that i think about it is almost like the movie the "devil wears prada" except i do have a few buddies at work and i do get unlimitd supply of makeup and my boss at least tries to pretend that she just cana't help being a bitch.

so apparetnly after i left the company everyone got fired except for my boss. the presient of the compnay apparently went nuts. AND apparently cus my boss was such a demanding bitch and my co workers felt so bad for me they started doing this secret joke to make fun of my boss even after i left by saying " VIVIAN RIGHT NOW !!!!!" in this mean and annoying voice behind her back everytime she is being mean to anyone . i think she fired like 10 intersn after me. LOL I am still remembered even after i left work ( although not in teh most fashionably way but oh well )HAHAHAHAH so much for an internship..i feel proud of my accomplishment. and i hope she will soon realize how much of a bitch she was and how she is really not that pretty and she should really stop wearing black stuff all the time. such a wannbe new yorker....but so glad my co worker now is working for the president of barneys in nyc..he is so FLY!!! he said he'll hook me up with i hit nyc HAHAH I CAN"T WAIT!!! 40 perecent discoutn babe..now that's some great shit!!

jess is gonna be in shenzhen in a week.i am visitin!! omgg that's gonan be so ghetto and interesting!!!!! she speaks no chinese and i am jsut clueless...GREAT COMBO!!!! can't wait!!

today is my last day for my class ( i am hoping i will get another course soon...fingers crossed) so after class my students and I went yum cha..which is funny cus everyone around us all looked like they have already retired and we are so young and loud ( i am not so young but i kinda blend in anwyays) and I can finally speak chinese in front of them cus they have trying to trick me to speak chinese throughout the course..it was fun..i like all my students very much indeed..reminds me of my younger days hahaha

anwayys..i just wanan get this outta my chest..we all take ppl or things for granted but we all know we shouldn. Is ok if we dun realize but just try to be more alert. But the worst is when u take people for granted and u made it clear to them that u are taking them for granted..so it is other people's fault or their stupidity if they continue to let u treat them like shit. I am just sick of ppl being disrespectful. Just try to be a lil more sensitive and less selfish. Beign polite is just some basic manners. You dun need to be all fake and pretend u care but at least be polite and considerate. Words are powerful tools which can bring much damange. ARGGGG i am just frustrated.

But it was a good day afterall. I will miss "my students." I dun like calling them students cus i really dun feel or act like a teacher anwayys. hahaa i really wish them good luck with their college appl ..these kids will be the crazy ones in schooll..i can already see that coming hahaa i only realize today that my students are quite similar to me haha we are all kinda crazy and werid hahahaha

what crap. i wanna go back to the states. i really do. although i would like to teach one more class before i leave. teaching is not as bad as i thought but maybe cus i suck so it makes no difference..my studnets just dun pay attention anwaysy. i need a break..a holiday . i wanna go to some exotic place alone..by myself. that should be fun. I wonder if ma parents would allow me. hummm

learning how to make money is hard. learning how to spend money wisely and restrain urself from buying useless stuff is also a very hard skill to master. ( at least for me....) but sometimes..when u think about it..why do u wanna buy a pair of shoes or buy a bag or clothes? it doesn't really make u prettier or more attractive or more approachable..ppl dun even realize u are wearing a pair of new shoes or new shirt..basically..u are the only person who really cares..However, if u all of a sudden become a nicer , friendlier person..ppl would def recognize the difference. Not that i am saying we should change or do whatever we do for other ppl..but just i am trying to remind myself to spend my money more wisely haha

but shopping when u are stressed or happy is still one of my fav things to do. Although sometimes when u are stressed and u go shop and then u spend too much and that just adds to ur stress..like me right now. only stupid ppl like me who do not know how to take care of their money would make sucha stupid mistake though..DAMN IT !!!

i hope everyone is having a productive summer making money/metting sugar daddy,sugar mama/ or learn the fact that making money is hard..and of coz..enjoying the summer spending quality time with family and friends..life is not only about money...although it is quite impoosible to live without it. Thanks to this summer  i will try to restrain myself next time buying unnecessary stuff. time to save up.