needed, one thing i recently have been reading entries to the revelife blog ring (which seems to be a group of believers who like to blog, but i dont understand it fully myself) because its been on the front xanga page. I just finished reading this one: http://weblog.revelife.com/weblogitem.aspx?user=revelife&uid=660442281 about how a guy "lost" his faith in God. i thot i'd jot it down, so i'd remember it. as i was reading it, i felt really bad for the guy, he had sincerely sought God for what seemed like an incredibly long time, reading through the bible several times, and earnestly seeking the Lord, but he heard no answer and in his despair he finally stopped "believing". And then I got to the last line, which says
"That was the last day that I spoke to God. I was eight years old." I hope this doesn't sound arrogrant and that I'm putting down a guy's real life story, which I don't doubt to be sincere, especially since obviously the revelife people blogged it for reasons to encourage and uplift. Furthermore, I know I don't understand everything there is about the situation. Nor am I putting down the serious nature of topics about people who seek after God or apostasy, but seriously the first thing I thought after reading that was: what a joke. the thoughts during this guys "seeking" period seemed so well developed. But does a spiritually unregenerate child less than 8, without the guidance of godly parents or a godly church have the ability to even partially understand the God of the bible and then base the rest of his life off what he concludes? It seems that this 8 year old guy's (and his older counterpart) understanding of God is similar to that of a genie in a magic lamp that does not grant wishes. I think the reason that this made it here is that the account initially seemed so incredibly deep, but in the end it ended up being the incredibly deep thoughts of someone who was less than 8 years old. So perhaps what is most interesting about the post is not the content of what was written, but rather the way it was written. I hope that now he's older, he would consider some of the comments left, get his questions answered, and by the grace of God get saved. Praise God that He calls and saves wretches, of which i am one of the worst. On another note, this is what the blog is similar to. it's as if I were to write something about how i spent many years seeking relationships with girls and I would befriend many, many ladies and grow intimately close with a bunch of them. The journey would be long and filled with sorrow, and finally the last one did not satisfy me for some arbitrary reason, and I swore off women forever. Then as my last sentence i'd write:
"That was the last time I believed in women. I was 8 years old.
P.S. girls are yucky." This feels like the most controversial post in the history of my xanga! | 
