[x]Ringing in my ears[x]- the music in the cafe...

[x]thinking[x]One day i admited to myself that i would have to hide my heart from the world....maybe i always have...

[x]Wishing[x]- i could be me again...

[x]rehydrating me[x]- nada

[x]Adding fat[x]- white chocolate and raspberry scone

[x]Feeling pretty in[x]- work clothes

[x]Ringing in my ears[x]- Rescue by Desperation

[x]thinking[x]How much i miss my relationship w/God...

[x]Wishing[x]- He believed...

[x]rehydrating me[x]- Apple juice

[x]Adding fat[x]-Mac and Cheese

[x]Feeling pretty in[x]- i wouldn't say this hospital gown is pretty

PART ONE- NAMES

1. Your REAL Name: Amanda Myers

2. What friends call you:Manda, Mandy, prego

3. What your (ex) boy/girl friends call you: Amanda

4. What's a name you once wished you'd rather have?:i always kinda like Hailey or Natalie

5. What is/are the ugliest name(s) you can think of?: way too many ugly names in the world..

6. What would you name these if you had them as pets?

a. turtle: Earl

b. goose: Razzle

c. pirate: hmmm a pet pirate??

7. If there was a song about you, what would it be called?: Torn

8. What would you name your kids?:

a. Boy:Tristen Ethan

b. Girl: Jasmine Marie

9. What would you name a ship you built?: Epiphany

10. If you wrote a book, what would it be called? depends on what it's about..

PART TWO- HAVE YOU EVER...

11. Thrown up in public?: yes on a field trip to falling water

12. Eaten or drank anything spoiled?: probably

13. Had a rip in your pants you didn't know about?: yeah actually

14. Tripped while checking someone out?: nope...ran into a parked car though

15. Had to pay for something you broke?: no

16. Nearly drowned?: yeah..@ the quarry..dad saved me

17. Passed out?: 2ce

18. Had a crush on somebody NOT single?: yeah

19. Been stuck in the rain?: yeah on paddle boat in the middle of Laurel Lake

20. Been attacked by an animal?:bit by a dog.. then there's the squirrel incident....

21. Caught people having sex?: never caught someone..but have been caught..

22. Fallen asleep while driving?: No

23. Felt attracted to someone of the same sex?: yeah...there's just a different connection there

24. Actually slipped on a banana peel?:nope

25. Made a wish that came true?: yeah

PART THREE- COMPLETE THE SENTENCE

26. I once had a dream i was kissing...a guy i had never met and he looked like he was from the 50s

27. I'm only racist towards...no one...

28. I don't know why I'm...trusting someone w/my heart after so much...

29. I'd give anything to have sex with... Eric...it makes me sick to think of being with ne1 else

30. Nothing sucks more than having to...give up a piece of who u r

31. If I had six bucks I'd buy...nothing..i'd save it

32. It's hot. I should take off...um...

33. It's always more fun when...your with people u love

34. You can't eat steak without...steak sauce

35. You better shut up before I...make u?

36. Just put it in my...hands...it'd a question of trust

37. I would tell you I liked you but...it's too late

38. I'm not who you think I am. I'm really...a lost little girl

39. Dude! Where's my...car?

PART FOUR- WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...

40. A dirty old guy at the airport slaps your ass?: punch him in the gut

41. You witness somebody about to steal your ...car?: try to scare then away then call the cops

42. You wake up with a billion spiders crawling all over you and your bed?:jump outta bed and start screaming

43. You burped while giving a persuasive speech in class?: keep going

44. The person you just kissed tells you they have oral ...herpes?: Laugh...who says that neway..besides i think i'm immune..i've never had a cold sore and i've kissed people who have..

45. A genie let's you have three wishes?: um..tink long and hard ..then wish..

46. The government allowed you to choose one thing to be made illegal and one thing to be legallized? i'd make abortions illegal and Marijuana legal...considering we're wasting time & money on, and our jails are full of dealers and kids who were caught with it and we're running outta room for rapist and muderers

47. Britney Spears was at your front door asking for jumper cables?: go get her some..just like i would ne one else

48. You had a time machine?: i'd pick my best memories and revisit them over and over again..and i'd go back and change some of my decisions

PART FIVE- WOULD YOU RATHER...

50. ..find the cure for cancer or the cure for aids?: Aids..b/c some cancers can be taken out..you can't just cut out aids

51. ..the power to fly, or the power to teleport?:teleport

52. ..have the power to see the future, or the power to record your dreams?: see the future

55. ..be in a drama movie, or a comedy?: drama

56. ..be in a hip hop video or a rock video?: rock

57. ..have your birthday on Christmas Day, or on February 29th?: Feb 29th

PART SIX- WHAT'S THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO YOUR MIND WHEN YOU READ THE FOLLOWING WORDS?

62. Courage:the cowardly dog

63. Driver:racecar

64. Yoga:ghandi

65. Bakery:pastry

66. Roach:Pappa Roach

67. Mushroom: yuck

68. Sprung:spring

69. Exotic:rain forest

70. Pythagorean: theorum

PART SEVEN-. CONSTRUCT AN ACRONYM FOR THESE WORDS.

(example: G M S = Give Me Steak )

71.a. D A N G E R: Ditch Angry Natives Going East Rapidly

b. C H I N A: Chopped Horse In Northern Asia

c. R P G: Really Pretty Girl

72. What is your definition of love? There's different kinds of love..there's family love and friendship love..there's compassion for strangers love.. love for ur enemies...God's love which is called agape...etc...In all honesty I thought I was in love once before Eric. I've spent years trying to convince myself it was infatuation and nothing more. Even today when i see him i remember...and it does hurt to know he feels nothing for me.. and maybe he never did.. There are some similarities between my feelings for him and my feelings for Eric.. It's like if I lose him.. It's like I'm going to lose my reason for breathing.. it's not about "i can't live without you" it's that i don't want to..it's not about "i don't remember what my life was without you" it's I remember my life before you and i don't want to live that life nemore. It's when you see something like a moving truck and all you can think about is how it reminds you of that time he picked you up @ ur friends storage shed when you were cold to get you to move...lol ok maybe that's just me..I know it's hurts when i see him upset or vice versa... I know that when i wake up i remember dreaming of him and when i go to sleep my last thoughts are of him...i know that i sleep better when he's there and when i wake up with him i want to freeze time in that moment forever.. that even when my back hurts from laying in that position too long i don't move b/c he's sleeping and i don't want to wake him.....I worry about him when he's gone.....before i told him i was in love with him... i would almost cry b/c i wanted to tell him so badly but i couldn't and when i finally did it felt like a relief... we've only been together a yr as of Jan 14th but i could spent a thousand life times with him...I think that if we break up.. I'll swear off guys unless God really brings someone to me ..but i will be a brick wall... i swear..b/c that's a pain i can't handle again...i think i got off track.. neway what is love? I think it's just something you know.... you can't "think you've been in love" it's something you know.. even if you have to move on first to realize that u weren't before.... does that make sense?well the bible gives a definition....Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. Amen.

I think i like that definition...never fails.....

73. List 3 words that are clues to identifying a person you are currently interested in: funny, determined, romantic

74. Reveal a secret about you that nobody knows of, but type it in acronym form: In all my nightmares every real vision obtained undermines social assumptions burning outstanding universal themes having always ventured into nothingness gives to him inspiration secrets brought about by yesterday

75. Close your eyes, turn around, and then open them: wall

76. Were you too scared to do it?:no

77. Who or what is your worst enemy?: pain

78: Who is the last person you kicked?:idk it's been awhile since i kicked someone

79. If you had to be a chess piece, which piece would you be?:the queen of course

80. Name three people you know whose names begin with the first letter of your first name:Allison, Angie, Angel

81. What's one romantic thing somebody's done for you?: one that comes to mind is when i had strep throat and Eric gave up bowling to come see me and brought me movies...

82. If you had to break one of your bones, which bone would it be?: my toe i guess..idk i kinda like my bones unbroken

PART EIGHT- WHAT IS YOUR COUNTER ARGUMENT?

(Example: "You suck." ~~> "No YOU suck.")

83. "Guys want nothing but action." Dogs want nothing but action..the real guys want a relationship too

84. "Only idiots watch The Simpsons." We all have shows that e watch that seem stupid to someone..

85. "Kentucky is way better than cali." yeah if you like cows...and inbreeding

86. "There's nothing wrong with stealing." unless u don't need it or it hurts someone

87. "Alcohol is the answer to ALL your problems." Alcohol just temporarily makes u 4get them.. then adds more

88. "You don't need to go to college to be a brain surgeon." yeah but ur not coming near my head if ya don't..

89. "Music is stupid." for the superficial and uncultured

90. "Your ...car sucks." Hey at least it works...

[x]Ringing in my ears[x]- Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry

[x]thinking[x]If it weren't for Eric and people's lives depending on me...i think i'd give up...

[x]Wishing[x]- grandma was better... i was home..eric was here...

[x]rehydrating me[x]- water

[x]Adding fat[x]- leftovers from the christmas dinner Eric made for me

[x]Feeling pretty in[x]- i wouldn't say this hospital gown is pretty