This post was originally written in response to a note my friend Sam wrote… it was first posted on facebook but in order to remain consistent in my postings… it is now posted every where… it has also been edited several times as I’ve been thinking more on this subject… every time I reread it more thoughts seem to come…

So here it is…

(this was suppose to be a comment on Sam's note... but it was too long by 1700 characters so... I guess I just wrote a note)

Sam... I was thinking... a deep thought... lol... being single is something we might never be again after we get married... I mean you could be when you're older... and your spouse dies (which will be just totally sad)...

I enjoy my freedom being a single person... I don't have to worry about if the other person is happy or what I'm doing that might bother them... or do I spend enough with them... or too much time... the list goes on forever...

Plus, this is the one time your life when you can focus totally on God and you don't have the distraction of a significant other... I'm praying right now that God would instill in me the feelings for him that I hope to have for my future husband someday... I'm praying that God will give me a deep burning love and passion for him... I think if I had a significant other right now I would be distracted from this... I think it is quite possible to have stronger feelings for our significant other than we do for God... not to mention we are prone to think about that special person and spend more time with them than we do with God...

Right now God is your lover (he should always be) this is a new concept for me... it is strange to think that God has a deep deep passion for us... it totally amazes me.... I can't wrap my mind around this concept... I feel undeserving of this passion he has for me... and that is what makes it so amazing... 

Right now I can focus on developing good habits that I might not have time, this discipline or the energy to develop later... I have more time to devote to intimate fellowship with God...

After you have a girlfriend you just won't have as much time for this... it should still be your first priority but you will be distracted from it...

Don't get the idea that I am 100% doing fine in this area... cause I'm not... and it is hard... I try when other couples are together and I'm alone... to remember God is there... he loves me more than that couple loves each other... I pray that I can enjoy his company like that couple is enjoying each others company...

When someone talks about their significant other... I think of God... my lover... I ask for his grace in dealing with it... it is so so hard to hear someone talk over and over again about the special person in their life... but in reality God should be the most special person in our life…

I mean wouldn't be awesome if we could think about God in the same manner that a boyfriend thinks about his girlfriend??? or talk about God the way couples talk about each other???

I'm far from this... so so very far... and I pray that I would have the deep passion for God now... that I hope I will have my husband someday... I think the reason I'm single now if so that I can focus on developing that passion for God... instead of someone else... if I don't have a deep passion for God now I think that after I have a special someone there is a strong possibility that I will never develop a strong passion for God... or that it wouldn’t be as strong as it could be…

This doesn’t mean that I don’t want to be married sometime… I’m happy that God has given me this opportunity to serve him as a single person and to be able to focus on him…

It is easy for other people to influence you to make the choices that they want you to make and this sometime distracts us from following what God would have us do… I’m sure that many times they don’t mean to be a distraction… but when you care deeply for someone sometime you are more prone to listen to them than you are to listen to God…

This ended up being longer than I wanted... but it was good... I needed to write it for me as much as I hope it helps you...

I may post more on this subject as I think about it more…

I got a book called they were single too and I'll let you read it when I done with it...