Answer to Prayer

As many of you know I asked pray recently for some job opportunities. God has answered in an amazing way. I feel so unworthy of the way he has provided. When I really think about it I’m moved to tears.

Over the past week I’ve had several job opportunities come up. The one I felt most lead to follow would have involved quitting one of my jobs and taking a pay cut, as well as being away from my family 5 days of the week and also missing out on an opportunity to go on a missions trip to Mexico through one of my jobs.

I heard an awesome sermon this weekend. The pastor talked about being where God can use you. Having a right relationship with God and being willing to give up whatever it takes and just follow God. He talked about Abraham and how God called him to leave his extended family and go to the land God would show him. He also talked about how God called Abraham to sacrifice his son.

I was really convicted. When I think about taking a different job it appeals to me. The adventure appeals to me. But when I really think about it, I don’t want to leave my family. I don’t want to give up the things I enjoy (not that they are all bad, some of them are very good), but I need to be willing to lay everything down, family, money, possession, a sense of belong, and go where ever he sends me.

I finally got to that point. I feel like I might have been at a similar place to where Abraham was when he was ready to sacrifice his son. I can’t sit here and worry about what money I make, what my long term goals are I need to let it go and say “God, take me… all that I am… all that I ever hope to be and just use me… where ever you want me…. However you want….”

I want to a person that can say that… and mean it …

I received a phone call today. Upon calling the person back they had an even better offer to the one previous extended to me. The one I was willing to take if that was what God desired to me.

Amazingly, this offer will means I won’t have to quit one of my jobs, will actually give me more hours at one of my jobs doing what I love doing and I’ll still be able to be home with my family as well as going on the missions trip with my one job (if I’m accepted).

I feel unworthy and totally amazed in how God works. I’m amazed at how the more I let go of the dreams that I have, how God takes them, turns them around and fulfills them and makes them even more than I ever thought thay could be.

I asked for wisdom and direction and I got way more than I asked for… in a good way.

Thanks for all your encouragement and prayers. All praise and glory be to God for all the things he has done is and doing.