ok well lets see... PARTY at my house tomorrow. omg i cant wait. imma get hella fucked up. its about damn time its been like two weeks but it seems like forever. well i dont have a boyfriend but i really like this one guy. ok well to tell the truth i love him.  work sucks i hate it. i might be gettin a new job. about damn time. lol. umm my lifes pretty boring. i hangout with my bestfreind/ twin/ cousin all the time now. i love her to death. im hella ten already and summer just started. so ill hopefully be like so dark by the time i go to k-state. im so excited to go to college and meet new people and just get away from all the drama i have here. umm thats about it i think. ill chat with yall some other time. love me always.

my life changed when i met you. i didnt know it then but i know it now. i love the way you hold my hand and i love the way you kiss me. i love everything about you. i even love your imperfections. i hat enot being with you and i hate not having you to hold. i wanna be us again. when i think about the future i can see myself with you. i guess what im trying to say is i love you.

if youve ever felt that way about someone then you know how im feeling right now. you feel like your misssing apart of you or you feel like youve lost a part of you and your never gonna get it back. i wish i knew how to make all these feelings just go away.

well thats really all i ve got to say.

<33 Court

ok well i guess its time i updated this thing.

umm lets see i have two weeks of skool left. yay. i move to k-state august 19th. omg i cant wait so i can get outta this house and away from my mom.

umm i had a bf but that didnt last. i wish it would have cuz i really liked him and i still do. he said we didnt see eachother enough but idk i think if we coulda lasted til skool got out we woulda seen eachother all the time.

ok i hate it how my parents tell me to act like an adult. well how can i act like one if they still treat me like im 5 years old? im suppose to make plans and tell my parents every little thing about where im goin and all that and i have a curfew of like 1. how can i do anything with a curfew like that? i wish i had parents that didnt care about what i do.

but this is really long and i have nothing else to say so imma get off.

love you all.

<33 Court

Ok well heres my update.

spring break- went to the lake for fuckin 4 nights. froze our ass off. tues. cam and some of his friends came and, i got so trashed and me and michelle went streaking.umm nuttin else exciting hsppend. but oh wait i got Tyler Davis's number friday night.

umm skool could be goin better but im workin on it. have a field trip to the zoo on friday. yay.

now lets talk about boys. umm they confuse me. i like some boys but they will remain nameless.

oh yeah i got a prom date. so yes this means im goin to prom even though i said that i wasnt gonna go. my date is levi, he goes to campus. well i still have to go get my dress and shoes and accessories but that aint a big deal.

well this is gettin long and i have nothin else to say.

love me alwayz.

<33 Court

ok well ive decided to give up on guys for awhile. i cant get the guys i want and the guys i can get i dont want. it use to be that i would just be with any guy that would be with me well not anymore. ive changed that. this lil poem thingy explains the kinda guy i want.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the worldwhen you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,"...thats her."

well thats all for now.love me always.

<33 Court

well well well.... it looks like im back. right now im doin laundry and playin with the kitties. so we figured out that my cat is now pregnant too. ok well lets see, i have a dr. appointment friday. yay.. i get to see my ankle for the first time since surgery. umm im off of everyones d and f list so that means i get to go to the lake for spring break. yes! well umm lets talk about boys. i like someone but i dont know how to tell him since he wont talk to me any more. ok well i messed up like a week ago and now he wont talk to me. im not gonna say who it is but i wish he would talk to me. i guess i dont get a second chance. but umm thats how my life is. pretty boring i know.

well this is gettin long so imma go. and i have to fold my clothes befor they get wrinkled. love me alwayz.

<33 Court